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Friday, March 27, 2009

wow haven't blogging for a long while...
alot of things happened to me in the past one year plus...
hmm i have alot to say but nothing to say.
i've been happy, sad, slightly heartbroken, stressed, tired and jaded.

dunno.

wenn

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Friday, December 07, 2007

juz came back from hong kong.
FINALLY went to hong kong.
after all the missed-opportunities.

went wif q and m.
hk is the not like what the commerical said- mai dong xi, ci dong xi, mai dong xi, ci dong xi (buy stuff, eat stuff...)
the eating part, well, got food poisoning on the FIRST DAY of trip which last till like now, now as in NOW while i'm still typing this the bateria is still in my tummy fighting with my body's defence system, which i think is winning cos' haven't been toileting much today. wahahahaha go go go defence system! (ah q also kena but hers ok after first day)

ANYWAY, yah so ci dong xi onli limited to expensive restaurants for perceived cleanliness. and mai dong xi also not good cos' the FP made me too weak and tired after puking and toileting to actually buy lotsa stuff.

yah. dun wanna talk abt other stuff lah. boring. not fantastic trip but quite good can bond with my sisters. though got some fights but many happy times too. :)
OH yah, and my burp made ah q and ah m wanna puke and faintish. like seriously.
ah q actualli puked and ah m felt faintish.
mama said cos' tummy got lotsa bad stuff so burp veri smelly. poor ah q and ah m.

k b. sleeping must stop her from sleeping. stopping here.

wenn the tummy ache person

wenn
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Saturday, October 20, 2007

quite depressed tody.
have alot of doubts in myself. felt realli lousy and dumb and stupid.
like ppl have to teach me everything.
felt so demoralising, like what the fuck r u doing?
why r u screwing up stuff?
can't u even handle this kinda stuff?
how to be a good producer then?
why can't i even talk properly?
can i even be a good producer? self doubt.
sometimes i really felt very qing xin. like seriousli why try so hard when you can't do it?
why bother?
why let it affect you so much? its a job, not your life.
why am i letting it giving my family and friends all the trouble?
why let it take over your life and make u moody and depressed and angry and negative and fuck-up?
all i talk abt is work. all my friends hear from me is work. i really feel sorry for my friends have to go through all these.
it sounds as if i hate my job. but i don't. i love it.
i dun mind the long hours, i dun mind missing out on lotsa stuff, i dun mind the stress, i dun mind being so tired that i fall asleep when i'm driving, i dun mind, i really dun.
i juz hate the part ******************************* *******************************************************
*******************************************************!!
like seriously, its already really hard, why make things harder?
sometimes i will juz break down and cry but the next day comes and i will be strong again to face stuff.
getting sick of it. maybe each time it makes my inside harden more and more.
maybe the worse part is that noone understands. or maybe they understand but not within their means to help.
life goes on. oh sorry, i mean work goes on.

depressed
huanwen

wenn
3:48 AM

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Tuesday, October 16, 2007

hmm... my 100th post. wow!
realised have been posting some really sad posts... should have some happi stuff...
my life is not all tears and frowns aiyo.

hmm past few days been quite good. have a chance to bond wif friends.
went hari raya visiting to kimi's place. ate alot. lol.
realised tat 6 years ago, we did the exact same thing. 6 YEARS???!!
fuck, 24 soon.
after tat, went wif the girls to vivo for topshop/topman fashion show thingy. b. got us seats in front of the stage! as if we r some VIPs. lololololol
then, shopping, dinner, home.
hmm last weekend before shoot that i can have some time with the girls. busi soonish........
hee excited can't wait for shoot to start!
LOVE LOVE LOVE the first story!
i heart PE!

i hate the term 'make love'. ewwwwwwwww so cheesy! k random.

wenn

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12:14 AM

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Thursday, October 04, 2007

i am crying. i hate it.

Wenn

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Wednesday, October 03, 2007

sigh. i need some help.

how to be a good producer?
how to strike that perfect balance between?
realli trying hard.
like sometimes when i tend to lean to one side more, i'm not being fair to the other.
and also become too accomodating.
there are stuff that i can't help but certain ppl will get unhappy abt it. i mean seriousli, i can't do what i can't do. i'm given that, so i have to stick to that.
thats why i try to amend by making it up in other areas. if not why did i send like more than 50 emails to fucking beg for stuff? why do i have to give myself extra work? because i am trying to find a win-win situation so that both side won't suffer! and still i heard complaints of unfairness!
how to strike a balance?
i'm trying my best now, thinking abt the both sides but seems not to be able to gain any footing.
i realli dunno. sometimes i feel really pissed with both everybody and myself.
i realli need to know and learn how to be a good producer.
teach me, how to make both sides happy?

wenn

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3:08 AM

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Sunday, September 30, 2007

i want to grow up.
rephrase.
i realised i've been like the past, alot of things haven't change yet. like, i'm still the eternal optimist who believes in the good of people and that noone's really bad.
k i mean i am not dumb like the whole world is nice but at least i feel that most of the people i've met are rather nice, good people.
and thats when i must grow up. cos' its so not true.
a close friend told me, maybe cos' u din realli experience much bad stuff and suffering so to you the world is always a beautiful place.
then i realised that my life has been realli good.
i dun have much wants, i have people i love and whom love me back.
i have a wonderful family.
i have friends that i dun deserve to have because they r u the best and loyal-est friends in the world, ones who are always there for me.
i have a good life.
so my life experiences are limited.
thats why i'm so naive.
is it true?
but is being naive something that comes out of my good life?
is it?
last time if you said ur flaw is being too soft hearted, ppl will go orhhhhhhhhhhh becos' its not a flaw technically.
but now, it is. seriousli in this world now, soft hearted-ness is a flaw, a weakness that should be barred.
and selfish ppl can be said as protecting self interest.
is soft hearted-ness the new selfish-ness?

stuff that happens these few days suck. big time. like i experienced lots of stuff that realli made me questioned if being a good person is worth all the trouble.
being nice is it being problems to myself?
when my sisters and i were young we were told to help ppl if we can.
of cos', there should be a balance between helping and accomodating.
and i'm tilting towards the a side.
shit.
thats why i wanna grow up. i wanna be hardened and not have so much emotions or let emotions get to me.
i hate it.
and i hate liking people. hate it. sucks.
onli made myself miserable sometimes.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
when u noe they won't like u back.
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

these few days have been quite bad for me. i can't sleep, feeling pissed and sad at the same time, feeling guilty and angry at the same matter.

kimi asked me what i want for my birthday. i asked kimi to buy me a year of happiness.
she said she will give me coupons that have expiry dates. lol
she is so cute i love her.

i dun want to be naive anymore. i wanna harden up and be tough. i want to be tough.

wenn

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Saturday, September 29, 2007

hmm hmm... got alot of confusing thots these few days. been keeping me up at night.
wondering. KNS.
miss li.
birthday coming. 24 years old OFFICIALLY.
depressed.
i'm gonna be in another tick box soon.
and i will celebrate with a ciggie.
can't smoke for a long while. stupid dental implant.
withdrawal stage. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.
cranky like mad.
time really passes quickly. been working at FF for abt 1 year! wow!

sian dun wanna think abt anything right now. in a bad mood today. since yesterday.
poor AA tried to cheer me up but failed.
half an invoice lol
super sianish ah!
shouldn't be, will be seeing the girls later. happy happy thots wenn.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh confusing thots again. STOP THINKING!
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. need a back massage.
life's confusing sometimes. irritating. stop guessing you kuku bird!
wenn! focus!
grgggggggggggggggggggggggggg

i think onli b. will una this blog. lolololololololol and she will roll her eyes big time.

the confusing and random entry

wenn

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

WOW!
realised i haven't been blogging for like 2 months.
veri busi recently.
juz finished one project the french drama eps. long 3 weeks of stress but CTT got most of the stress.
learnt alot from her :D
now working on the telemovie.
in the midst of the production. love production!
i love going around outside filming. not confined to the office 24/7.
maybe thats why i love this!
cos' partly its a mixture of both office and outdoor.
sigh.
met alot of different kind of people this past near 2 months.
wow. expad horizons. lol k drama
got a new nickname. courtesy of CTT.
the chimney.
lol
aiya dunno wat to blog abt cos' life is the same in a different exciting way everyday.
hmm...
oh yah! discovered one of my biggest "love" on tv is GAY. depressed.
depressed.
depressed.

but i still like him :)
hope have a chance to work with him but well, hard lah huh.
sigh.

gained some weight back.
hmm. settling into the mode so gained back some weight. sigh.
not good.

wenn

PS: W's coming back! YEAH! in 2 weeks time! MISS HIM BIG TIME!
PPS: having period. sigh.

wenn
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Thursday, June 28, 2007

haven't been blogging for a while.
change font, suits my mood more.
hmm juz finish the kids program.
a long along 3 months can't believe that time passes so soon...
it seems not long ago that we r still struggling wif ep 1...
hmm, new projects coming up!
right now, confirmed 2 new ones!
excited but worry too.
will i do well in this?
luckily got PM to help me. she veri nice and veri good alot to learn from her.
must jia you wenn!

yesterday realised and came to a relevation! or is it revelation? hmm keep confusing myself!
yah huge relevation!

hmm not in the writing mood.

wenn

PS: last night i killed a cockroach. a flying one.

PPS: i miss the production team. miss *W and the clubbing trips. lol

PPPS: dun tell lices.

wenn
1:26 AM

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Friday, May 18, 2007

i am a self centered person.
and i juz realised that when b. told me she is very tired of being my friend.
i always take my friends for granted. i always make people wait for me. i always think that my problems are the biggest problems and that noone else's problems can be as bad as mine.
i am self centered.
now that i reflect on my past behaviour, i realised i am that kind of person that i dislike, or even hate.
i take people for granted, my family, my friends, i always keep them hanging there for ME and ME only.
i always expect them to be there for me, to change for me, to do things my way, to give way to me, everything revolves around ME and ME ONLY.
my world is always the most impt and others' aren't.
i always do things that will make ME feel happy, in the process i hurt others.
even though i always try to think abt others and make them feel happy, deep down its all for me, for my own peace of mind.
everything is abt me. i neglect my family and friends' feelings, always looking for them when i need them and am nv there for them when they need me.
and i always give the excuse to them and myself, i am busi wif work, i am stressed.
but everyone have stress.
what make me so fucking special?
suddenli i look back and i realised that i am leading a self centered life.
i dun deserve my family who has always been so patiently supporting me in whatever i do.
and yet i always give priority to my own feelings instead of theirs.
and my friends, i always expect them to be there for me. to lend me a crying shoulder. to support me when i am down.
and yet i am so self centered that i din reply to their messages sometimes and onli look for them when i wanna something.
i am such a lousy person.
i am not a good daughter/sister/friend.
i am a user.
i keep giving excuses for my self centeredness.
like i'm busi so i am late.
i am busi so i have no time for you.
keep finding excuses for the laziness/can't-be-botheredness to make time for them.
and i expect them to understand, expect them to be so forgiving and tolerable of my selfish behaviour.
i nv care for people, onli thing i care for is my own feelings, my own agenda.
and yet all the while, i've been noticing it but force it to the back of my mind becos' thats the easy way out.
and i hurt so mani people in the process.
why am i like that?
am i like that in the past?
when i was way younger?
huanwen u r such a shit.
u nv genuinely care for people.
u always care for urself.
and u expect people to care for u in the way u r too selfish to give them.
u r such a shit.
someone told me before: u r white on the outside black on the inside but in a different context.
this applies to me now.
i am all fake nice and sweet on the outside but inside i am a self centered bitch.
i am such a fake.
all my empty promises.
all my fake concerns and nice-ness.
i neglect everything that is impt to me, i hurt people's feelings, i make them wait for me, anytime i want them to, i make people change their schedules for me.
fuck.
i always thot that i am a nice person, now i realised that its wrong.
i am such a selfish brute.
i want to change.
i will change.
i dun want my family and friends to be emotionally exhausted becos' of me.
i want to care for others, to genuinely care for others.
i want to be dependable for the people i love.
huanwen u must change, the world dun revolves around u.
dun be a shithole anymore.
huanwen will change from this second onwards.
will.

huanwen

wenn
1:31 AM

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Friday, May 04, 2007

*someone asked me: what do you think is a good production? is it that everyone's happy?
me: *nods
*someone: wrong. everyone happy does not mean that its a good production.

yeah, thats what i want. everyone to be happi on shoot and no tense moments.
but i guess *someone is right.
when u r too nice to people, people take you for granted.
they think you are always so nice and smiling and everything's ok.
and they will ask me if i put on a straight face, "today bad mood ah?"
how to be stern without being deemed as fierce?
i realli dunno.
i am like that. i happi, i laugh. i stress i frown.
all my emotions shown on my face.
shit.
i dun want ppl to take me for granted like "ok if i forget to do that wenn will be fine with it one lah".
but i also dun want ppl to tense up when they see me.
dunno. contradicting.
how to find that balance?
think T* did it very well. he dun have to show a frowny face or a smiley face and ppl juz like him and respect him. wow.
i wanna be like that too.
guess i have tons of years to catch up.
aiya i dunno lah this is a veri messy entry.
like i juz type whatever that pops into my head.
i like all the crew they are nice ppl.
but somehow i feel that i owe them something, like i wasn't good enough to have such good crew.
like, i'm this novice and they r like experienced.
so i always have that kind of bei fen feeling, like i'm not supposed to do what i am doing.
not supposed to schedule their time, i am too much of a greenhorn for that.
another thing is i dun wanna pissed ppl off, especially ppl i like, and certain stuff that i felt its unfair juz dun work.
like, i feel that this is unfair but i cannot do anything cos' its not my call and i am in no position to do anything but listen to upstairs.
but i am the messenager so everytime i convey this kind messages i always feel guility and i will apologize non-stop.
but i shouldn't apologize non-stop it will contriubute to the point i've mentioned juz now abt being taken for granted becos' i am always feeling sorri.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh contradicting thots!

and that day i lashed out at *M (though he dun feel anything).
i couldn't reach him on his mobile and i was worried that he's still sleeping then when i saw him i juz told him "i dun want to talk to you you are always late!"
yah my way of lashing out. i haven't master the realli scold-ppl method yet.
anyway felt guility after that cos' he's busi with other work thats why late so i apologized.
apologize for what wenn?
stop saying sorri!
stop being so wishy washy and soft hearted.
stop wanting everyone to be happi!
i dunno lah.

so contradicting.
and i think i juz pissed someone off.
yeah. but actualli what i wanna say is the opposite.
but guess my text came out the wrong tone. fuck.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh dunno lah.
human relations.
i used to think i am good with ppl till now, i realised that i'm so not.
blarr..

messy entry

wenn - the-struggling-bad-human-relations-pa-trying-to-cope-with-being-a-producer

PS: my smoking kaki is gone... shifted to new york. now i'm the onli smoker left in the office. sucks.

wenn
2:06 AM

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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

very very stressed.

work- never sees the end of it.

sherry told me: no matter what u do, there's always stress.

this sentence sooths my stressfulness for abit.

then now, it all rises again.

been bitching and complaining to b. abt ***.

not professional wenn.

i mean, its not his fault also lah but why must i clean up after him??

k i noe he's sick and stuff but in the first place if everything is properly set up even if he's sick things will still go on fine.

like, seriousli, i realli dun have time to do my own work already and i still have to cover for you, cleaning up the mess that you are supposed to be tidying...

i'm not invincible.

i mean, as a producer i must be able to multi task and that i admit, i must.

and i know teamwork is very important.

but i dun have the TIME to do everything alone right now!

i have to push my own work behind so that i can cover for u and end up wif no time to do my own stuff.

no time to eat, no time to call ppl, no time to get auditions.

onli time i can squeeze out is to get a fag or to vent out my frustrations with b. or here.

and i haven't realli tok to my family for a long time.

been neglecting them.

u noe how i feel?

u r not incompetent, but can u be more focused?

if i tok to u abt the script can u at least noe what i am toking abt?

i realli dunno what you want and even when i tok to u, i dun understand what u want sometimes cos' u yourself dun seems to noe what u want.

i cannot read ur mind.

and dun keep telling me that everything is ok, this also can that also can, i need a definite answer then i can go abt doing and giving u what u want.

u tell me this also can that also can, u think i have the time to find both and let u choose?

make up ur mind!

u call the shots, tell me what u freaking want!

how do i noe what kind of footages u have in mind? explain!

i noe shit. k not shit, but i noe very minimal of this; i am not a director!

i am struggling to be a good producer.

note: struggling

i'm trying my own ways and methods to deal with all the stuff i've encountered, learning as i go, as i fall.

and i noe i am not doing a very good job.

but i am trying.

i am trying very hard cos' i dun want to screw things up.

i want it to be good.

and if i screw things up u won't be able to make straight.

its not that i have alot of confidence or pride in my work, juz that i dun have confidence in u.

u dun have to be realli realli good or what for me to have faith in u. the most impt thing is to KNOW WHAT U WANT and TELL ME WHAT U WANT!

if u want this, stick to this, dun keep telling me this and that also can. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i'm so sick of it!

can you pls dun let me clean up ur mess?!

if u say u r coming back in the afternoon can you pls do so and not appear like late at nite?!

if not at least make sure that you are contactable.

i have alot of qns to ask u but i can't reach u.

and if anything goes wrong, everyone's questioning me.

wenn why like this?

wenn how?

wenn cutaways not enough.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

i am supposed to answer for all these cos' i am supposed to know all these.

but what i noe is not enough!

thats why u r here right?

direct the way!

do u noe sometimes i am so stressed that i wanna cry?!

that i've actualli teared a few times and have to force myself to hold back my tears?

i wanna juz scream and run away from everything.

but i tell myself i must stay on.

i choose to work in this line, i want to work in this line.

i am not walking out.

and i keep telling myself, i must pull this off.

i noe i am capable of pulling this off.

the show will go on and excel!

if u can't make it work, i will make it work.

wenn-going-back-to-work

wenn
10:15 PM

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Saturday, March 31, 2007

haven't blog for abt a month...
been veri veri busi wif work...
finalli wrap for the video!!
4 days of shoot. my first producer job!
well, din do veri well...
keep forgetting abt stuff...
and din have "backups".
like on the fourth day we were supposed to shoot outdoor scene at westcoast then it rained and we can't realli shoot in the rain cos' the scene is SUNNY!
then i dun have a backup for shooting. din think abt it.
then max was telling me must plan for stuff and how i should be more flexible in my work.
feel quite incompetent.
i think if max is the producer the shoot will be lagi successful!
i dunno if i will ever be as good as him as a producer...
sigh...
think the crew all veri nice to me cos' they all know i veri blurr and this is my first production so they quite nice lah.
michelle helps alot too... thanks so much!!
hmm... felt quite good after the shoot cos' i mean, everything turns off fine but somehow dun feel veri good cos' i made alot of mistakes and overlook alot of things...
i mean, i am realli lucky that nothing major happens.
i mean yah, i did left my bag (with the day's tapes!! inside the cab) and the company's laptop and my laptop in the cab but luckily managed to get it back.
whew...
like, how blur am i?
yah...
still learnt alot during the shoot. know what to expect and what to plan for.
another shoot coming up and lotsa stuff not settled yet.
today went back to work and things work out ok-ly so hope everything turns out fine.
and i am so giving meals!
GRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

well, last nite i went to this company launch thingy wif lao ban, max and erik. quite fun.
lao ban was mingling with other ppl (lao ban quite famous in the industry so alot of ppl toks to him lah) and max, erik and me chilled at the side. just tok lor.
and drink beer and smoke at the balony. hahahaaa
pretty laid back mood.
had a good time.
meet ppl.
hahaa my first company's event!
heheheheheheheeeee
and somemore i volunteer to tag along!!
hahahaaa
quite happi... free food also! yummy food!
*big grin

well, life's not as bad as i have said in my previous post.
now i learn from my mistakes and will definitely do a better job producing the next program.
shoot starting again!! next week!
more busi days!
:)

wenn the-one-whose-mommy-is-waiting-for-her-to-go-to-the-gym-while-she-is-blogging

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9:17 PM

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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

have you ever feel realli stupid and dumb and that you are causing people trouble instead of helping them?
like you're a burden?
well, now i felt it big time.
felt realli dumb and stupid cos' i dunno much abt production and like, am a burden more than helper.
and my blurrness make it worse.
i have to like, keep asking the whole world abt work stuff and seriousli, i felt realli dumb.
ppl always have to teach me everything step by step.
somehow, although may not be true, i felt that ** finds it a nuisance to work wif me, or rather, finds me a nuisance, incompetent.
i dunno if i am too sensitive or what but maybe cos' he's very busi and still have to like, keep an eye on me.
i'm not bitching abt him at all in case u'll thot i am. i wasn't.
i like him as in he is nice and i respect him.
juz that i keep trying to match up wif his standards of doing my work well but somehow i keep falling back.
i always ask the dumbest answers and do the dumbest stuff.
i keep trying to do my best but somehow its not working.
i felt that like no matter what i do i am still someone he would prefer not to work wif or someone who always have to have someone watches her back.
this is how i feel.
i feel realli dumb lah.
i am blaming myself.
why can't i keep up wif the work?
i cannot realli blame it on the fact that i dunno much cos' all these are basic stuff. like contacting ppl and stuff. like i cannot even do this kind of stuff well.
felt realli realli stupid. one wif no common sense.
and always have that feelings that i cannot match up to his standards, not that he have super high standards.
no matter how hard i work, how late i do my work till.
depressed.
aiya no matter what i am blaming myself.

and no lah i won't quit or give up. this is not in me and i like this job.
i am not quitting. one day, i will where i want to be.
now i must stick it through and learn and learn and learn.
cannot be stupid! dun keep making stupid mistakes!!

felt-like-crap wenn

wenn
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

haven't been blogging for quite a while...
maybe abt a month? yah...
veri busi/tired...
work.

OH yah! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! :D
i went to China during new year lah.
yeah not surprising hahaaaa.
this is the piggie's year.
my year.
officially 24 already. well, lunar lah. but actually lunar year right, i should be 26. *shudder
k not thinking abt THAT!!

hmm this year supposed to be a bad year for pigs cos' fan tai suai...
must go pray...
so when i was in china i went to bai bai...
then in the end kena scolded by ah q.
cos' i dunno how to bai...
bought incense sticks, one bundle, then dunno how to burn them cos' no lighter.
ah q. said should buy the HUGE one the size of my arms lah!! then abt 1 metre long!! hahahaaaa then juz buy one and stick it in can already... heheeee but i pai seh so din lah.
then there's a huge stove thingy there lah but too hot cannot go near.
then ah q. said i veri mafan go bai bai also so troublesome. if buy the huge incense stick can dun worri abt the stove already... cos' very big dun need to go too near the fire... :( scold me again...
in the end i burnt the incense with someone's else candle lah.
then guess what i did?
i went OUTSIDE the temple behind the place when you stick the incense in.
yah. then ah q. scolded me again.
said i wanna bai bai go outside of the temple for what!!
yah... k i veri dumb but not experienced mah... :(

then when we went to another temple i go bai again.
this time i veri smart.
i bought 3 incense abt size of thumb and half a metre long. still too pai seh to buy the huge one...
then min, q, and jiajun share 3 small sticks and min and jiajun damm funni lah.
wif their 1 small stick incense each, they bai all the deities in the temple!!
hahahahhahaaaaa so funni lah!!
then min said its the thot that counts..
heheheeee they two veri funni lah.

well, china trip quite fun cos' alot of relatives went... bustling mode.
:D

ANYWAY i am still at work now... waiting for stuff to be dump out... yah... these few weeks veri busi lotsa things to do... but quite fun learn alot of things :D
but now i am tired and hungry...
i wanna stay opposite!! :(

wenn

PS: b. said i always tok abt work so i'm trying to curb it. NOT.TALKING.ABT.WORK!

wenn
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Saturday, February 03, 2007

work my first 24 hours marathon shift last nite...
went to work at 9.30am, finished at 11ish this morning...
wow!
slept for less than 3 hours (interuppted sleep somemore. wake up every hour to digi. the tapes.)!!!
was so tired...
then went to chinatown to meet wif the uni gang for lunch...
mole's leaving tonite...
back to brissy...
won't see her for 1 and 1/2 year...
sad...
will miss her man!!
mole big kiss! (k)

after lunch took 190 back...
fell into a deep sleep in the bus...
and i think i snored.
yes, thats right.
i think i snored.
though no realli sure, BUT i nearli always snored when i was super tired, like today.
somemore its not the soft snoring sound.
its the SNORE SNORE SNORE sound!!
k the thot of it veri pai seh.
sigh... hope there's noone i noe on the bus at that time!!
haiii always did all those xia suai stuff lah.
cannot make it.
wenn, behave more like a female can?
underneath the sorta ferminine surface you are actually a man! one with disgusting habits too!!
aiyo.

i need a life man.

wenn the un-seemingly man

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Saturday, January 27, 2007

Ahhhhhhh life's great.
k dramatics again.
considered that my ceiling, after 3 months of fixing and boarding, is finalli fixed, and i found my missing earring inside my ehem *cough bra (how tiny is the possibility that an earring that's gone missing was found in ur bra? after you walk around everywhere the whole day?? realli tiny), plus all the blessings i should count often in life, life's pretty good.

blabbering again.
aiyo. its juz the hour.

anyway, met up wif mole, david and susu today. had dinner at crystal jade express.
supposed to meet them at 7.30pm. ended up reaching at 9.30pm...
why leh? work lor. boooooooo......
it was realli nice catching up and teasing david. poor david. david we love you dun despair. heheheee go cut ur **** ****. heheheee
stupid mole. going back to brissy on the 3rd. wau lau. so earli. angry. its next sat!! OMG!! not gonna see mole for 1 year!! NOOOOOOOOO!!!
will miss my molly.
well, susu, hee can see her often... can meet for breakfast.. stay quite near... :)international stalker ehem ehem...
david, well, it's juz david. dun have to see him...
though my stuff r still wif him. THANKS ZIYAO!!
no lah... hahahaaa i'll miss u too david!! hugs!!
so sweet help glads pass the stuff to me and end up have to take the stuff back again. so nice...... wowwwwww!!! hugs again. maybe we'll do supper someday, night person??

we had dinner then ah do came to join us for a bit cos' we (do and me) were supposed to go club after that.
but do's carrying her laptop from work and somemore it's raining and SOMEMORE it's the once a month late nite shopping, so we decided to skip clubbing n go shop instead.
yeah. mole, susu and david went off to their own engagements and do and me juz shopped around.
walked from wisma to tangs to far east. tired. but ok lah quite fun. bond on the way. wow do and me bonding. dun give me the face U PEOPLE!! the club members!! u noe who u r!!

anyway, the whole world, or rather, MY world of people know how broke i am now...
so i dun wanna shop cos' running out of moooooolahhhhhhh.
do wanna buy a dress but end up its me who bought a top...
aiyo.
after that went to bk for drink then went back.
do took a cab home and i took the NR lah.
met connie at the bus stop!!
hahahaaa somemore alight at the same stop.
went home wif her.
tok alot on the way.
we miss aussie!
connie veri sweet sent me to my gate before going home... ahhhhhhh!! big kiss!!

veri happi to meet up wif other friends other than B.!! see her like every week!! boring!! hhahahahaaa she so gonna pinch me!!

life's good.

wenn

PS: i wanna sing ktv!! who wanna sing ktv?? jio me!!
PPS: jamdonuts here means the shot with baileys and some purple currant liquor, not the BAKED kind with jam!!! though i like both. :)

wenn
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Friday, January 19, 2007

life after skool: work work work.
started working for abt 2 weeks already...
(not counting thailand)
learnt alot of stuff. realised if i wanna work in this line i have to start from scratch.
lotsa technical stuff to learn, software to learn...
yeah... skool's a breeze compare to the harsh harsh world of working.
ok, i'm being drama.
working's not too bad, have fun times too.
seeing how all the after shooting production work is done and the amt of effort used in producing a half an hour program, i nv look at a tv program the same anymore.
yeah.
last time: i wanna do tv production.
now: wow so mani different processes behind it. what do i actualli wanna be?
an editor? a producer? a director?
hmm......... still trying out different stuff so that i noe what i wanna be.
choices in life...
nv noe if they r right until u try each and everyone of them.
and truthfully speaking, there's no right or wrong in choices.
juz whether you deem them as right or wrong.
i've chosen a line wif heckless working hours, crazy schedules and lotsa uncertainties.
not to mention, a pay that does not justified the hours i'm going to work.
to some, it maybe a reckless choice, a wrong one.
but to me, i like it.
"i like it" justified all the wrongness of this choice and made my choice holy and sacred, like the rainbow after the storm, the make-up sex after arguments...
k drama again. ahhahaaaa drama-ness in my blood.
wenn drama li
li drama huanwen.
whatever.
hahaa
ANYWAY, i may not gonna be the best (position) in the industry in the future, but i gonna do my best.
yah clinche lah.
not giving up! despite the fact that i DUNNO ANYTHING!!
(well now noe abit, a teensy weensy bit already).
yeah life goes on.

wenn

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Friday, January 12, 2007

-transition period-

from student to employee

hmm...

working life is ok. not as bad as i feel.

as in i'm coping okly.

life's goes on.

settling in the working mode.

still, the first couple of days wasn't so well.

encountered my veri suai (bad luck) day on my second day of work!

second day of work:

went to work.

do work do work do work.

before going home, sent on a courier mission.

and it was raining heavily!!

kena splashed wif water on the road by a passingby a car and was drenched on half of my body. fuck.

exclaimed: FUCK!

the lady behind me looked at me in shock.

fuck her.

reached tanjong pagar.

rain.

walked in puddles of water as high as my ankles.

reached destination.

office closed!!

fuck.

called back office.

told to go to the office behind.

went there, hand items, left.

on the way to mrt station, was weewee by this old malay uncle.

stupid dick go get fucked by a possum!!

took train.

reached.

was topping up ezlink when this indian auntie suddenli cut queue.

the son was like nudging her to stop that.

veri angry.

then thot, today so suai better do some good deeds.

old auntie, nvm lah let her go first.

went ntuc buy lotsa instant noodles.

uncle behind me wif onli a bottle of water.

told him to go first.

shocked face then said thank u.

cashier auntie smiled at me.

good deed 2.

suai day be gone!!

home sweet home.

life's not too bad.

suai-ness be gone!

wenn

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Monday, January 01, 2007

on the last friday of 2006, i went clubbing wif the girls (and a guy).
had great great fun.
b. and i went out on thursday and we, apparently juz me according to her, decided to dress realli casual for friday.
not gonna put heavy heavy makeup and glammy clothes; juz simply powder and the SAME clothes that i wore on thursday.
hehee dun yucks me.
well, b. decided to be arty farty so she wore bermudas wif this black tank top wif a a sash attached to it.
and her black framed specs.
i wore this checked spag baby doll top and an old denim skirt.
veri casual and comfy.
no heels.
b. and i met up wif ulric (bitchy) first at ps and chilled for a while.
haven't see him for quite a while.
still as irritating as usual.
comments he made during the short while:
him: dun smoke lah. aiyo.
him: u look like a malay. (becos' of my tan)
him: ur hp looks tacky. (becos' its pink wif sparkly bits)

see my face?
he is so irritating!!
grgggggggggg i pinched him.
hahahaaa
anyway, ah do came soon after and cos' both do and ulric were hungry, we went to yoshinoya for dinner.
onli they two eat.
b. and i not hungry.
then pp came and b. and pp went to collect the movie tickets first. ( we were watching curse of the golden flowers before club).
then ah do and i went to look for them while ulric went to meet up wif his friend.
supposed to meet fishy at the cinema but she veri blurr!!
she went to the cathy at orchard instead of the new one at dg.
she missed abit of the show lah but not alot...
she veri cute lah tat fish.
heeee
the show was funni; especialli when jay chou came out.
so weird to see him all dressed in ancient clothings.
kept giggling.
after the show, we went to phuture.
meet bear and zy and lydia there.
forgotten to eat dinner and was realli hungry at phuture.
drank vodka redbull and orange and a tequila shot.
got tipsy and it was realli fun.
danced and talk crap.
ah do and pp veri cute when they r tipsy.
realli let their hair down and have fun!!
b. said something veri evil though.
me: i am hungry gonna bite myself.
her: cannot. u malay cannot eat pork.

see my face again??!!!
i hate ulric i hate b.
grgggggggggggg!!!

ANYWAY, was dancing and the music was good.
THEN, i felt realli sick so i went to the toilet wif lydia.
peed then went back to the dance floor.
still felt realli sick cos' alcohol turning my stomach upside down.
should have eaten dinner! damm!!
squat on the floor.
beening brand a loser by everyone.
watever! boo!!
and the bad luck prevails.
saw soohan there!!
and i was juz teasing b. that we might see him there.
hahahahaha quite funni.
damm pai seh to run into a friend when u r squatting on the floor feeling gross to the max.
after a while, felt realli pukish so i told b. and we went to the toilet at zouk.
somewhere between zouk's counter and toilet, i puked.
yes i puked.
b. din realised and she juz kept dragging me along so apparently, i walked, puked then continuing walking.
din stop.
quite funni.
walked, bleahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, walked.
hahahaaaa
went to toilet and puked all the alcohol out.
felt so much better.
but still a little giddy.
stoned.
went down to the snacks bar wif b. to get some food.
ah do, pp and lydia came to look for us then we went to find bear and zy at the wine bar.
felt realli bad cos' bear and zy sent me home despite the fact that they ordered some drinks already.
thank u thank u thank u, bear and zy!!
reached home, showered and found out that pp puked on her way back.
apparently, she couldn't stop puking the next day as well.
so she had to take leave.
poor pp.
i couldn't sleep well the whole nite cos' i kept smelling alcohol and cigarettes.
what a nite.
but it was realli fun!!
realli realli good fun!!
wanna club again soon but dun think pp will wanna go.
heheheheheee
she sworn off alcohol for ages!
hmm, wanna club again this friday... hmm
but start work already so dunno have the energy or not to club...
haiiiiiiiiii lao le.

wenn

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Happy New Year!!

2007!!!

today's the first day of the year...

a brand new year, a brand new start.

2006 had been good, most of the times.

grew up alot.

alot of experiences.

end of my skoolhood, beginning of working life.

lotsa things gonna change for this new year...

i can so feel it.

my year; pig's year.

but apparently bad for the piggys.

fang tai shui.

must go pray.

hmm...

but nevertheless, still hope that this is a fatubulous year and everything will work out fine for everyone, except the bad ppl.

end 2006 kinda of peacefully.

din go celebrate or countdown.

lotsa ppl.

actualli spent the last few mins of 2006 and first mins of 2007 toking to siok on the phone.

ahhaaaaa

quite funni.

long story.

ANYWAY, stayed at home the whole day.

wanna go out at nite but dunno where to go cos' everywhere is crowded wif peeps.

and i dun like fireworks.

pretty but meaningless.

kinda like a bimbo.

daddy, mommy, q and m went to watch the curse of the golden flowers, 9.30pm show so i was left alone at home.

maid also went upstairs to ah gong's place to look for the other 2.

so yeah, onli me and tiao tiao at home.

wanting to start 2007 wif a good omen, i went exercising on my treadmill for nearli 30 mins.

hahaaa

sweat all the bad stuff out.

yeah, good start 2007.

then went shower and watched tv.

family came back before 12 so kinda of spent new year wif them.

calm foray into the next year.

and i made a resolution.

i must live each year better than the previous.

yeah.

my promise to myself.

happy new year, wenn.

wenn

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

read b.'s blog.
she realli dun deserve all those crap from that piece of shit/junk/freakface.
this is so gonna be an unfair and biased and superficial and perhaps quite untrue (abt the couple of freakfaces) blog but so puking all those accusations out!
wau lau!
pls, u think u r like some super cute and cool valentino trying to worm ur way around ladies ah?
u stupid shit.
my hamster has more grace and charm than u!! and way cuter!
stupid long haired ah beng wannabe!!
u and betty blop so suit each other lah.
one's stupid the other one stupid AND gross!
u two make me gag!
i dun understand.
is betty blop realli tat dumb that she can't see that u r trying to get ur cake and eat it too??
and in the meantime trying to snatch up extra pieces as well?
is her head fill wif straw instead?
or is she realli tat naive?
like wow he loves onli me!
pls!
but maybe thats why she so deserves u, freakface!
freaking toy wif my b.'s feelings!
gross!
u should be happi and jump wif joy that b. actualli USED to like u, given ur fucked up freakface and even freak-ier and disgusting and childish character.
toy wif my b....
*slap
*pinch
*smash dick
my b. deserves someone much better than u!
go and live ur pathetic life wif ur equalli pathetic gf.
gross people deserve one another.

wenn

childish and low of me to verbally abuse people i dun realli noe. but thats for hurting my b. and making her look bad and xia shui. serve u right!

wenn
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Monday, December 25, 2006

back from thailand.

it was an awesome trip!!

but veri veri tiring and emotionally frustrating!!

still, there r lotsa happi times too.

like the day when we went out to the andaman(?) sea and spent like the whole day there swimming to the emerald cave, emerging to a gorgegous lagoon, cold but cute lunch at this jurassic park like island, bumpy but fun ride back to the beach, falling on my butt in the sea.

and times when the kids dun make me grouchy and we actualli had fun toking and playing.

and the extremely gross shooting day at the bats' cave!!

nv forget that!!

raining bat's poo and bird's poo literally!!

yucks!!

and all the bats' poo covering the ground and the staircase!!

nvtheless, it was fun in a disgusting way!!

i love the big headed ghost cave!~

veri livable kinda place.

hahaa cool and windy wifout moss and dampness.

i like!

and the 2km hike.

fainting.

it was 2 hours up and 2 hours down.

i nearli died from exhaustion!!

it juz showed how weak my stamina was.

sigh...

sweat all over me: my hair, my face, my body, my armpits, my clothes... horrible thot...

bet i stink too...

gross!

but still, something to remember and be guilty abt...

and the most impt part, i made friends!! :D

carina, and the kids, yc, the thai crew...

this is the best part!!

they r all realli nice people.

abit shy at first cos' dunno them and thats' juz me.

OHHHHHHHHHHH and i got to continue my internship in jan!!

yeah!!

finalli something productive after few months of job hunting!!

finalli moving towards what i wanna do...

*big grin

wenn

PS: i have lotsa sovenoirs from the trip; my ultra dark tan and uneven too, zillions of mosquitoes bites, lotsa cuts and bumps and bruises, blue-black toes and eye bags bigger than my eyes... great.

PS: din realli shop (dun wow)... too tired from focusing on kids to shop... sigh...

wenn
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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

life's pretty good.
lotsa stuff happened and happening to me.
tats why haven't been blogging...

1. finalli someone to fix my leaking ceiling. thus, internet location change to q and min's room. which is why haven't been blogging much.

2. rita came for a visit!! :D met up wif her a few times... now she's back in shanghai... missing her. kiyo came for a visit too. went back tp japan already... he's damm cute like a little boy haha... like sang...hehehee *miss sang too

3. peeps coming back. ulric's back; elgin's back. glads' coming in dec (but i won't be here... :( ); everyone else's coming back. yeah.

4. i am going to thailand. :D but not for holiday. for work. for abt a month!! hee. well, not exactly work cos' its an internship. for a production film on a kids program!! hehehehehehehehee happi... going this thursday!!

5. went ktv wif ah bear and ah fish yesterday and went ktv wif papa, mama, q and min juz now. :D had fun.

6. wearing min's pooh ears now... random.

well, juz blog abt this stuff first. guess i should be blogging in a month time!! :D

wenn

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Monday, November 13, 2006

times when i notice that my hair is too long/getting longerrrrrr:

1. when my armpits ki-yup (hokkien?) my hair everytime i raise my arms.

2. when my hair is giving me a heat stroke when not tied

3. when it takes me a long time to wash and condition it every shower

4. when i lay on my hair and it pulls my scalp

5. when i tie my hair into a ponytail and it still looks veri long.

yao (must/wanna) cut hair already.

wenn

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feeling lonely...

papa and min overseas now...

papa in cambodia and min in hk...

papa there for a short trip wif his friends and min in hk for student exchange...

*sulk

but papa coming back soonish so not too bad...

min coming back next tuesday...

missing her...

sent papa to airport yesterday and sent min to airport today.

papa called home when he reached cambodia and sounds like he's having lotsa fun!! :D

min called home when she reached hk.

then 2 hours later mama worried again so she called min again.

min in hospital this time.

need injection!!

then mama panicked and we waited for min to call back again...

turns out that min had gastics flu/cramps/watever...

according to the doctor, cause of the illness: ate too much.

quite funni... hehee

mama still worried that min veri hungry from flight...

wahahhaaa ends up eat too much...

quite funni realli...

drama lah the whole thing.

and i kept asking mama if she wanna me to sleep wif her in her room.

cos' i scared she loneli.

and not used to sleeping wifout someone snoring next to her.

so i volunteered myself.

then mama said i drama.

she said if sleep alone she can turn here and there alot of space and i told her to not fall from the bed when she's turning.

papa coming home tmr. yeah!!

hmm missing min now...

huanwen

PS: i pinched her face alot of times before she left becos' cannot bully her for 10 days...

wenn
12:53 AM

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Friday, November 10, 2006

this is gonna be a confusing entry..
cos' its specialli written for a friend... and i think only she can sorta una what i'm realli saying here...
HELLO *friend, read hard!! but if u r in the office, dun read i scared u cry.
tok to a friend (*cannot disclose her identity, she will killlllllllll me!!)...
she asked me (gist):
her: huanwen, i dunno why he avoided me when everything's promising... i think its my fault. maybe i should change or something...
me: pls, if he dun like u, no matter how much u change, he WON'T like u. *while trying to change lane in a jam. wow!!
seriousli, when this kinda shit happened, and we juz kept questioning ourselves, is it our faults?
is it me?
is it what i did?
maybe if i'm prettier/thinner/better complexion/taller/longer hair/bigger boobs blar blar blar, he will like me (more)?
well, MAYBE he will. but that onli means that he is superficial.
ok, i mean everyone is superficial.
but if in the first place he already sorta likes u and suddenli u look better and he likes u MORE, isn't that superficiality??
so what? if u like me more becos' i become prettier, does that mean that u will like me less if i have an outbreak or something?
and seriousli serious, what abt my personality?
i'm not a dummy u freakface.
friend, u noe what i mean??
u r perfect in ur own way and if he likes u, he likes u.
if not, quote SATC, he's juz not that into u.
and quit guys who r not that into u cos' u'll onli hurt urself.
juz think abt it, he is the one who's a CB coward and why r u the one to juggle wif all the hurt and stress when he is the one who should feel ashamed and guilty for his cowardice??!!!
seriousli, its not u.
its him.
if he can't accept u for who u r and dun likes u enough to dare to venture into a relationship, quit him.
i mean, imagine if the situation is reversed and he's the one moaning after u, do u think he will actualli think that its his fault?
that he should have nicer hair, better body or handsome-er face?
no he won't.
i noe its hard to juz detach ur feelings.
i realli do.
but u r so much more than that and so much more than ur definition of urself.
u have pretty oriental features, nice long hair, slim (shut up if u wanna rebuke), stylish max, funky, trendy and these r juz the superficial aspects which u possess and which I NOE u have been questioning and doubting becos' of that sick coward.
and u noe what? u r so much more than that.
u r brave, strong, sweet, caring, loyal, tender-hearted, friendly, fun, tactful, rational though not that rational sometimes, independent, confident (even if its onli a front), loving and many more qualities which i noe u possess.
don't be so hard on urself.
gross looking people r everywhere and u r NOT one of them.
(NOW, i'm being mean and superficial. WHATEVER!!)
i love u woman, and all of us (u noe who) do.
we will always be here for u.
u noe, and we noe, that this is a hard phrase to go through but u r strong, we noe u will be able to pull through and emerge from this blues stronger, wif zillion tons more confidence and thinner (cried so much of cos' u will lose weight. in ur tear drops. drip, 1kg, drip, 2kg, drip, 5kg. wow!)
when u see him, juz think:
u: i'm glad that i'm not wif THAT kinda guy.
and the more u say it, the more u will believe and alas, u have forgotten abt him!! yeah!! big cheers!!
be more positive woman.
see the sunshine.
feel the cool crisp air-con.
taste ur food.
eat chocolate.
cry out loud.
read magazines.
tok hard.
sleep well.
call me/us out.
go shopping.
life is good. pay attention to the positive side that u have been neglecting for a while.
dun compromise urself for anything.
i/we will always be here for u.
love u always woman.

huanwen (the alphabet).

wenn
2:33 AM

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well, nothing much happening this week...
except alot of catching up wif peeps!! :)
met up wif b. on tuesday.
supposed to meet kimimi as well but that woman lah, last min. needa do work so cannot join us..
booooooo...
but its ok lah... cos' i'm an understanding person...
(i understand kimi *understanding look)
ANYWAY, chilled wif b. at starbucks till 10ish...
toking abt life, work (lack of), money, friendship blar blar blar...
grown up tok...
told b. i wanna quit smoking by end of the year...
then fetched her home.
this session inspired me to send applications to production companies and guess what, one called me the VERI NEXT DAY!!
hahahahhaaa
went for interview today...
another long story on its own...
if its successful, i'll spill everything here!!
successful pretty pls!!

met up wif joyce after her interview on wednesday...
chilled at lot 1 mcdonalds (from 1ish till 4ish) and juz toked...
catch up on everything: secondary skool lah, poly lah blar blar blar...
also told joyce abt the quitting smoking part...
basicalli bitching the whole while... hahahaa
then juz walked around lot 1 for a bit then go back...
NOTE: broke an eye shadow tester in body shop...
then ran away!! heheeee

well, actualli nothing much to blog abt but juz meaningful to me...

wenn

PS: pity friends having exams right now... poor lim, poor nisa, poor jas, poor everyone...

wenn
2:15 AM

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

nov 3rd is a veri special day...

MY BIRTHDAY!!

hahahaaa

and nov 4th is a super special day too...

MY DADDY'S BIRTHDAY!!

wahahahahahaa

had a small bbq wif a few close friends at my place on friday...

was realli fun!!

so authentic...

cos' nowadays not much ways to celebrate birthdays...

go ktv lah, go clubbing lah...

eat dinner lah...

like nothing much leh...

so now go back to the sec-skoolhood of authentic bbqs...

i like...

hahaa

alot of funni stuff happened...

like the ejaculating sausage (dun give me the eeks face), the fact that 3/4 of us (yes including me) disappeared from the bbq pit abt 9-10pm to watch the last episode of the 9pm drama at my place..

quite funni...

OH yah and the fact that there were so much chicken that we have to bring home to give my maid to fry!!

after bbq, b., fishy, siok and ryan stayed and we played mj!!

heheheeee veri fun...

veri veri happi...

thank u, everyone, for coming...

and special thanks and big hugs for peeps who helped me wif preparations and stuff...

i heart you, guys.

(stupid lah i wanna do the heart shaped icon but its kept appearing as <3>!!!)

4th nov.

papa's birthday.

went out for dinner.

ate good food and got so much food that we all cannot finish must da bao (doggy bag)

theres a singing thingy function organised by community centre near that area so we all went to stand and watch.

papa and mama like the songs (alot of oldies) and i was bored.

so i ka jiao ah q and (p)zi min.

heheeee

then we went to play at the playground.

hahaaa how old already??

i told zi min:

me: seeing the little tiny kids at the playground reminded me that u r all grown up..

zi min: silence..

after that we went back to look for papa and mama.

and we were all sweaty and hot.

(i think ah q is ok cos' she not so siao like me and zi min)

then mama helped us wipe sweat.

then i said i wanna go home...

like when we were little kids and after playing, go back to ah gong and ah ma's home, all dirty and sweaty and tired, whining that we wanna go home...

heheee back to being kids...

heheheee

after listening to "bangawan solo?", we left..

veri veri happi too.

veri simple, authentic birthday celebration.

veri happi days.

hmm don't u juz miss the "old" days?

basking-in-happiness wenn

PS: zi min and i roast leftover mashmellows on our stove. hahahahhaaa

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Wednesday, November 01, 2006

u noe how sometimes u tend to think of the past and can't help but beautify the past becos' u miss it so much??

and the past always seem to be better, maybe not alot but defintely better.

i miss my past.

i miss my skool days.

i miss having to cram for exams and assignments and the free time i have to sleep, chill or simply juz bum around.

no wonder adults always said to me when i was young, that to treasure my skool days cos' they will be the best times of my life.

yeah, its passed the best times of my life now.

i have adult responsibilities, adults' worries...

i looked at my pictures from brissy and i found myself craving to go back to the past, or maybe juz the last 2 years; wishing that i have more time to spend there, wishing that somehow, i can still indulge in the innocence of secondary skool days.

i'm at a platform now.

gonna say goodbye to my irresponsible and happy-hood; moving towards the all-serious adulthood.

so sian.

then i realised: we kept planning for the future.

in primary skool; which secondary skool to go to.

in secondary skool; to go poly or jc.

in poly/jc; which uni to go to.

during uni; what jobs can i look for.

working; save for the future.

we kept looking at and worrying abt the future and forgotten to enjoy the present.

thats why time passed fast; becos' somehow, we want it to.

and when times passes and we regreted not enjoying the many presents we had, we started looking forward to the past.

the past is always the best, becos' it is unattainable.

and becos' we regret not having the best of presents during the past.

well, maybe not everybody have the same sentiments as me.

juz missing the past.

wishing that i had the best presents in my past.

since past will always be unattainable, i have to focus on my present.

making my present the best present so that when it becomes the past, i can say that i have the best presents during my past.

hmm, come to think abt it, future is also presents. juz presents that haven't BEEN present YET.

k must stop worrying abt the future presents.

future presents are for presents that happen in the future.

so instead, i must enjoy present presents.

hmm..... confusing terms abt past, present and future.

wenn-missing-past-presents

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i miss brissy.

i miss ih.

saw friends' pics from facebook juz now...

miss my friends so much...

i wanna go back...

depressed...

wenn-missing-brissy

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Saturday, October 28, 2006

juz a short post on happenings these few days...

wednesday

went to this place "bali villa?" to celebrate ah bear's birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH BEAR!!

at first wanna go zouk but we all lazi somemore raining so decided to go to this super cool chill out place!!

damm nice!!

veri bali-ish!!

especialli the toilets!!

haha

anyway, chilled and tok there till 1ish then we left..

quite a good celebration...

thursday

went for 2 interviews...

one's a company which i realli work for..

another one's not realli a job...

hope they call me for second round of interview...

but to say the truth, i screwed up man!!

like at first it was fine but after a while, i started stuttering and pausing...

well, hope they call...

friday

went out wif kimimi and b..

met for dinner.

and coffee after...

tok alot abt everything: family, relationships, young times...

yeah...

pretty good...

but pp and ah do cannot join us so quite sad...

well, not a veri interesting post.

cos' veri lazi to write now.

ending.

wenn

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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

car accidents SUCK BIG TIME!!

yes, as u should be able to guess, i juz had a car accident.

fuck the rain.

fuck the slippery road.

i was driving to my friend's place for hari raya celebrations.

another of my friend was wif me in the car.

i was on the expressway and there's a jam lah.

the car in front of me inched forward as the traffic moved.

so i moved also lah.

then he stopped and i stopped.

but the thing was, i couldn't stop!!

i stepped onto the brakes but the car juz kept inching forward!!

then BUM!

crashed into the car-in-front-of-me's backside.

the driver stopped at the side of the expressway and both of us get down.

my friend wanna helped me but he was stucked in the car becos' i parked next to the bushes..

quite funni.

so i went down and talked to that guy lah.

at first he seemed abit pissed off but then after inspecting his car, which was surprisely scratches free, he seemed ok.

no even a small dent!!

lucky!!

but my carplate got abit dented at the side but otherwise, everything's fine.

we inspected his boot and its fine as well so he said he would give me a call he found anything wrong when he checked later.

then we headed off.

irritating incident.

spoilt my mood. but juz a little lah.

reached my friend's place.

called mama.

mama said its ok lah.

came home.

daddy kinda of nagged abit and i got pissed off and did what i always do when i'm irritated: ignore and go into my room.

and called my friends to complain.

then papa came in and asked me to eat chicken he cooked.

i said i dun want veri full.

din face him.

then after that mama came into my room to talk to me.

mama calmed me down and i was ok already lah.

not irritated. abit guilty for being irritated cos' i noe papa meant well.

went outside told papa in a somewhat grumpy voice "i will be more careful next time".

papa said "guai".

then we ok already. truce.

yah lah i noe i'm like realli spoilt lah.

whatever!

so now everything's fine.

juz hope that nothing's wrong wif that car lah.

which is quite a highly possible thing lah.

hope he nv calls me.

eventful day.

the accident puts a damper to my day lah.

but ok lah.

nothing too bad.

wenn

PS: mama veri funni. she told me to teach ah q. abt handling car accidents like these cos' i have "experience" (twice) already. hahahahaaa

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been trying to complete the post on the nz trip these few days cos' alot to write and alot of pics...

finalli finished!!

(random: i have a small lump on my thigh and i asked mama will it be tumor or something. she said i paranoid and told me to dun "ruan jiang hua" (talk nonsense) but still gonna ask doc abt it when i go for the hepatitis prevention jab next week.)

hmm nothing earth shaking happened the past few days...

b. and pp stayed over at my place on friday nite.

and AS USUAL, the b. fell asleep at 12...

leaving pp and me watchig SATC dvds on my laptop.

but pp quite cool.

she was sleepy but she managed to watch dvd wif me till 4ish...

way to go, up to ho, pp, pp wooh wooh wooh!!
heeeeee random cheer.

ANYWAY, u noe what?

she let me straighten her hair...

but her hair veri stubborn still a little pointy... hee

then wifout telling her, i crimped her hair and she ended up looking like an afro!!

hahahahaaa

hip hop sia!!

then she pinched me realli hard!! but i couldn't stop laughing and i took pics.

will post soonish. hee

the next day, went to the 24 hr coffee shop next my house for bunch.

shared chicken cutlet and tao hway (sweet beancurd) wif pp.

b. ate something soupy think its fish something.

me: hahaa people walk past may think we two on diet.

pp: *snigger

me: except that i'm eating little now so that i can go back to eat the roti prata!! wahahaha

but end up din eat lah.

cos' full already.

b. said i ate veri little and i told her its my anoroexic weekend.

after bunch, pp left for a date wif gorgeous leehom at the indoor stadium while b. and me came back to my place.

b. supposed to direct me to hougang cos' suba invited me for deepavali celebrations.

(thanks suba!!)

decided to wear deepavali outfit to suba's house.

wore a pink translucent grauze-y material crop bohero (right spelling?) sew wif golden decorations, a white top, denim skirt, gold sandals and a totalli matching indian-ish necklace and zillions of golden bangles.

i like my outfit.

hee

after consulting the net, b. and i set off to hougang.

suba's place is pretty near b.'s workplace so she knows the way pretty well lah.

which is good.

then after leading me to the place, i drove her back home to bishan.

and i STILL managed to retrack the way back to suba's place leh!!

hahahhaaa (haolianing)

reached suba's place.

her house veri nice lah!!

veri big got foyer and balcony somemore!!

and suba's so pretty in her sari!!

midnite blue wif matching accesories!

so pretty lah!! but she pretty even when wearing normal clothes!!

kit, jen, amelia already there, eating wifout waiting for me... :(

so i quickly grabbed the food which suba's mother cooked and ate wif them.

THE FOOD IS GREAT!!

i love the curries!!

and the desserts!!

and the chili eggs!!

hahaaaa greedy me.

but din take pics too busi eeating.

after that, we talked and waited for shury (kit's wife... no lah juz kidding. dun kill me miss shan shang) to arrive.

she came and we went for second round.

after that jen left and we all chilled in suba's room till like 11ish 12.

at first wanna go eat prata but becos' all still quite full so din go.

went back home instead.

tired.

din sleep well the nite before cos' i gave up my bed to pp and b.

so i slept on the pull-out bed instead.

yawns...

sunday. lazy lazy warm day.

do nothing.

slept till 3ishpm.

tried to look for ppl who have sat straits times cos' i forget to buy.

been wanting to buy for the recruitment section for like a few weeks but keep on forgetting.

and so wanna sent out resumes tonite.

called ppl.

at first wanna borrow from kit cos' he have then cos' he went swimming so lazi to wait till he comes back as i was tired (from doing nothing. weird)

came online.

saw melvyn online.

asked him.

he got! yeah!

dun have to wait already!

yeahhhhhh!!

thanks melvyn!

drove wif min to his place.

took from him.

min followed me up cos' min said his mother was her kindergarten teacher.

wow! min's memory veri good.

so mani years already she still remembered.

catch up wif him for a few mins then went to buy jelly ice cream at min's friend's place's downstairs minimart.

KNS. sold out.

i wanna try cos' never eat before...

wow jelly ice cream leh!!

min said veri nice.

wowwwwwwww.....

came back home.

watched tv.

online.

talked to b..

sleep.

woke up at 2ish today.

q. lied to me said 3ish already.

pian ren!!

used net.

then daddy wanna go metro sale at expo.

daddy, mommy, min and me went.

q. stayed at home to study for her As.

good luck q.!!

wo yong yuan zhi chi ni!! (k)

went to expo for abt an hour.

ate dinner there.

hee ate the turkey bacon burger from BK.

yummy.

anoroexic weekend over.

wahahahahaaa

came back watched tv shower.

talked to mama.

used net till now.

nothing earth shaking but cute to mention anyway.

wenn

PS: yeah!! hari raya tmr (actualli today)!!

i love malay food and tibits!!

yum yum yum!!!

mimi, r u inviting me to ur place?

heeeee

PPS: going to a friend's place for hari raya!! hehehehee and his mom cooked GREAT FOOD!! wahahahahahaa

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Friday, October 20, 2006

this post is abt my new zealand trip...

nearli forgotten abt it...

get abit hazzi over the details, juz some of the more memorable stuff but lotsa pics.

overall, the trip was awesome!!

i think the worst part is saying bye to nozomi before leaving for the trip...

cos' when we came back from the trip, nozomi will be back in japan...

we both cried and seriousli, sad start to a great holiday...

i miss her... :(

took some pics but will post next time...

nozomi i miss u!!!

(hmm, how come i have that deja vu feeling that i've posted abt the NZ trip before??!!! hmm... but cannot find the post... hmmmmm)

anyway, there were several eventful stuffs that happened during the trip...

we reached christchurch at nite and after checking in a lodge, i think its called the airport lodge or something, we decided to walk to the nearest petrol station to buy food.

the distance on the map seems realli short BUT when we walked there, its took us like an hour plus 2 hours to reach!!

can u imagine!! we juz kept walking and walking and walking!!

can faint lah!!

finalli reached the petrol station and stocked up our food, we took a cab back... less than 15 mins... see my face!!

well, next day, we rent a van to drive to queenstown and the ride was realli fun!!

tok and laughed and sang and SLEPT!!

(once again, i swear that i've written abt the NZ trip before... maybe deleted already?? shit what happened to it??)

anyway, we reached queenstown at night and it was freezing man!!

have to wear alot of thick woolly clothes!!

queenstown was realli pretty!!

the view in front of our hotel is awesome!!

a lake directly in front of our hotel and mountains all around...

wow.......

and queenstown itself was pretty amazing..

a small little town which is veri townish (modern townish) and most of the people there were there for skiing.

cool sia... such a ski culture.

actualli its something like cairns execpt that, of cos', cairns a beach culture place and hot like mad when we went there and queenstowns' like freezingly freezing!!

we went to hire our skis the next day at like 7am in the morning cos' we wanna an earli start to skiing!! yeah!!!

got skis, drive to the ski place.

SHIT!! cannot remember which ski place we went to cos' there r 3...

well, the nearest one anyway..

hahaaa

reached ski place, we put on our ski boots on the van and walked up a steep flight of stairs to get the skiing area.

not surprisly,it reminds me of how tiring it was to walk in ski boots and how much i hate it the previous time.

and to walk up the steep slippery stairs was horrible!!

so scared that i'll fall and roll down the metal stairway!!

and have to climb AND carry the skis... made me exhausted juz thinking abt it!!

after the long stair ways, we reached the skiing place.

we went to sign up for lessons.

one lesson and ski passes included lah.

went for intermediate wif ulric, emily and alex.

finding the lesson too easy for them (they skied damm well lah), ulric and emily went off to join another lesson: the advanced class!!

then, alex went to another class to and i was left alone in the intermediate class...

went down the beginner slope: some pretty gentle slopes and steep slopes, was quite fun...

heee

then after the lesson and lunch, i decided to challenge myself and went to the intermediate slope which is next to the beginner slope...

took the ski lift up (oh did i mention i FALL down 3 times when i tried to exit the ski lift? explanation: cos' when we get down the ski lift, we have to SKI down instead of walking off it. so in the 3 times that i tried to ski down, i fell on my face, on my bum and my skis flew off my boots. yes, u get the picture)

well anyway, went to the intermediate slope.

was quite steep at some places and i fell a few times but it was fun lah!!

so much better than the slope i tried in mount buller. (well, maybe becos' the slope in tried in buller is a baby slope for beginners... hee)

i remembered i was skiing down the intermediate slope once when i missed the gentle-er slope i wanna exit and ended up skiing down a realli short but extremely steep slope and ended gliding down the slope on my bum all the way to the ground and even then, i couldn't stop and ended up stopping becos' i crashed into a woman.

and when i looked back, i can see my glide marks and my personal belongings, aka gloves, ski poles, beanie along the glide marks... :(

damm pai seh lah but i couldn't stop laughing and my bum hurts cos' "bua teo" (hokkien) wif snow.

grgggggg scary incident.

ANYWAY, skied till 4pm when the ski pad close.

met up wif the rest, went for dinner.

then we went back to the hotel.

after a rest for like 2 3 hours, we decided to go this bar; minus 5 bar.

ulric din go cos' he was kinda of sick.

apparently it was minus 5 degree in the bar becos' eevrything's made of ice, even the glasses.

and we were taught special way to hold the ice (aka hold the ice glaaes wif BOTH hands instead of one cos' they may slip and fall)

and we can onli stay there for like 30mins...

and have to wear thick thick jackets and not allow to take it off.

quite fun and the cocktails were realli nice.

veri fruity girlie drinks...

hahaaa

after minus 5, we decided to chill at other pubs for a while before going back.

however, we saw this shop (there r other similar shops around, tons of them) which sold legal versions of speed, pot...

and as i've mentioned, these r LEGAL!!

cool huh!!!

it legal in nz lah but i'm not sure if legal in brissy or not and definitly not singapore lah.

so, being the curious tourists, we bought this pills called the big grin.

supposed to make u laugh and laugh and laugh.

cost 15 bucks per person man!!

and there's a recovery pill too which is included.

so, we went back to the hotel, all gathered in our room, and popped the pills.

after half an hour, nothing happend and we thot we were taken for a trip.

so everybody returned to their rooms and sunny, ulric and me (ulric din take the pills cos' he's sick) juz watched tv and chill.

THEN, sunny felt sick and soon after, while i was eating instant noodles, i had a massive headache and it realli occured sudenli like out of no where!!

and it was so bad that i had to hold my head with both hands tight!!

after struggling for like 10 mins, sunny and i popped the recovery pills and soon after we were fine.

THEN, 2 hours later when we were watching tv, the shoulder pads on meg ryan tiggered sunny's laughing thingy and she started laughing at everything!!

sudenli, there's a knock on our door and charu and anjali came in laughing!!

according to them, they started laughing 2 hours ago not long after they went back to their room!

and they had been hiding in the laundry room becos' they dun wanna disturb our other friend who was sleeping.

we asked if the pills made them sick as well and they told us that they felt sick AND yet can't control their laughter at the same time.

and another side effect of the pill is that it makes one paranoid.

thus, when someone knocked on our door a while after charu and anjali came in, both of them quickly hid behind the bed in panic, laughing at the same time.

it was alex.

she said that christian wasn't feeling well and we quickly brought him over to our room, aka the laughing/sick room.

he came over, realli paranoid and sick as well due to the pill, but not laughing.

worried that emily would haev the same syptoms as well, we quickly called her room and told her to come over.

she came and apparently, she's feeling the way as the rest.

everyone who took the pills were in our room and they decided to take the recovery pills.

however, ANOTHER side effect of the pills was insomia!!

so, in order to let ulric rest as he was sick, we went out to the corridor and sat there for ages!!

finalli when its abt 4ish, we decided to go back to our rooms and try to sleep.

well, took a while before we could fall asleep.

sigh and the next day, we were all too tired to wake up in the morning, let alone skiing.

thus we decided to go to the deer park!!

THE deer park.

THE LOTR DEER PARK!!

we swapped our ski passes for passes to the deer park and a buffet on mountain top later.

alex drove us to the deer park as christian wasn't feeling too well.

THE DEER PARK WAS AWESOME!!!

deers and lamas and donkeys and goats all wander around freely and when we drove to the top, we could see the surrounding mountain ranges!!

WOW!!

damm nice!!

felt veri new zealanish!! hahaaaa

(half hoping that i can see a hobbit or elf pop out somewhere... hee)

after that we went back to the hotel to fetch the rest and went for buffet on the mountain top.

the food was okay but the VIEW, as usual, was AWESOME!!

so pretty!!!!!!!!!

(i ate lotsa prawns wif thousand island sauce!!)

after that we went back to the hotel for some pre-party drinks then we went clubbing at a few pubs there.

the next day, we went skiing again.

and i was getting the hang of skiing on the intermediate slope.

at around 3.15pm, before the ski pad closed, anjali and i decided to brave the advance slope!!

in order to go up on the advanced slope, we had to take another lift up the mountain and anjali and i thot that the end of the lift was at the place where the clouds blocked our views.

BUT, the lift went ALL THE WAY up the mountain!!!

TO THE VERY TOP!!!

THE VERY TOP!!!

we nearli fainted!!

we could hardly see the base camp from the top!! and we could see for zilions miles away!!!

having no choice execept to ski down, we went on our way and tried to use the easiest paths.

anjali went down first and i was behind her cos' i dun dare to ski veri fast.

we arranged to meet at the bottom of the mountain.

(note: there were no fences at the edges of the paths so if we went too fast, we might juz topple over the side of the mountain!!

FREAKY!!!

so i went down slowly, choosing the easiest paths.

anjali was good.

she disappeared after a while.

i struggled down but fell at tricky areas.

THEN, the steepest slope of all!!

it started from the middle of the mountain till the bottom.

its a steep, slope all the way to the bottom.

veri steep and the snow is powdery so its hard to ski.

i braced myself, skied down... and fell after few seconds.

and kept on felling... on my BUTT!!

i couldn't stop becos' of the steep-ness of the slope and finalli, after digging the heels of my skis into the snow, managed to stop.

to add insult to my terrible ski-on-the-butt, the lift is right NEXT to the slope and EVERYONE can see me CLEARLY when i fall.

see my face?

well, seeing my big fall, this kind couple came over to help me.

they helped me up, and held me to prevent me from falling, so that i could wear my skis back.

(to get up when wearing skis, must first take one of the ski off so that we can stand up and regain balance. if not once we stand up on skis we will start slipping over again. well that is if we can get up on our feet WHEN wearing skis. and seriousli, to wear the ski back on a steep slope is realli HARD HARD and HARD for a not-veri-good-skier like me...)

wif their help, i managed to wear my skis, get my ski poles and ready to move on. the kind couple actualli stood there to watch over me so that i wouldn't fall again.

then i went.

and fell again...

this time, i fell on my butt (as usual) and REALLI couldn't stop myself, even when i dug the heels into the snow, i juz kept going down.

and it is gaining speed as i went...

i remembered thinking; will i go all the way down to the bottom of the mountain? shit! how pai seh will that be??!!!

then, i think my butt hit a hard lump of snow and i shifted.

my butt started turning and i was suddenli upside down, head at bottom, butt in the air...

and i managed to stop becos' of the turn.

ok pai seh till dunno what to say.

think can burn a hole in the snow.

the kind couple quickly skied down to help me AGAIN and the usual.

they even asked if i wanna them to carry my skis down for me while i WALKED down the slope!!

as i was near the bottom of the mountain, i declined, determined to complete my route IN skis.

so i went down but this time, i heed their advice and skied zipzap and thus, managed to reach the bottom of the mountain in one piece.

SO EXCITING!!!

after the long journey down, my blood was filled wif adreline and all i wanna do was to go up again!!

but alas, the ski pad is closing so i need to go.

bye mountain watever-the-name-is, hope i can come back again someday.

(afternote: actualli, come to think abt it. i think i couldn't ski veri well becos' of my ski boots. as least 50%. serious, i am not pushing my incompetence to the boots. serious. if i can't, i will admit that i can't. becos' u see, ski boots r supposed to be fitting, as in JUST NICE. like uncomfortably tight but not tight till no circulation. my ski boots r juz nice in the normal-wear-shoes-nice, which means they r kinda of too loose to ski on. thats why i avoided doing turns when skiing cos' my feet will slide around in my boots and i will fall. and to get down the steep mountain slope, i HAVE to do turnings to reduce my speed. thus, i kept falling cos' i kept going down the slope in a straight line which made me go like realli fast and not stable. hmm, must wear tight tight boots next time. like in melbourne. but veri painful lah tight tight boots. dunno lah. miss skiing.)

k ANYWAY, the next day, we needa go back to christchurch.

we drove back again and on the way, anjali went for bugee jumping!!

cool huh!!

and it was an awesome place to bugee jump!!

a bridge between mountains and a river at the bottom!! coolios!!

wanna try but i scared something may fly out...

and somemore quite x.

nvm tried sky diving already so should be abt the same.

yes, abit showing off. here. hahaaaa

continued our journey back.

stayed at airport lodge again for a nite and the day, flew back to brissy.

hmmmmmmm such a good trip.

nz was awesome.

i wanna go back again. so pretty and fun.

miss skiing...

WELL, anyway, these r the pics. from that trip...

too mani pics so i juz posted a few (which is still alot)!! all the pictures r in a mess cos' i'm too lazi to arrange them...

but there will be a short descrption below abt it lah...

we were at the christchurch airport.

waiting for our transport to go to airport lodge to spend the nite before driving off to queenstown!!

view from the top of deer park.
alex driving.
after deer park. anjali and christian sleeping while i tried to sleep feed them gummy snakes.
ulric and charu in charu's room.
going down the mountain on our last day. trying to figure out how to put the chain thingy round the wheels so that we won't slide off the road.
view from our hotel, rydges.
at the buffet place.
buffet place pic 2.
view from deer park. legolas where r u?
deer park. from left: emily, sulo, sunny and me.
at queenstown. group pic.
minus 5 bar. from left: me, anjali, charu and sunny. extra bartender at the back.
charu and anjali.
me. yes i juz woke up.
charu and sunny.
from left: sunny, me, anjali, charu and alex.

view from ski pad. near the lift.
skiers.

along the road on the way to queenstown from christchurch.
yes, we kept stopping to take pictures. so pretty.
rydges.
in the van before departure.
away we go... LOTR adventures!! RIGHT!
nice group pic.
trying to get up a big lump of snow.
but...

charu and me. a good road trip pic.
yes, thats what we always do during the journey. cranky necks.
the trusty driver, mr christian.
we dun always sleep. we talked, laughed and ate too.
before departure to queenstown.
the first nite in christchurch. we were looking for the petrol kiosk 2 hours away.
at the airport. still not too cold.
i think this is the advanced slope. see how far away is the base camp. aiyo.
taken when i fell on the intermediate slope.
the intermediate slope entrance behind me. pose nice nice first.
ski lift.

views from deer park.
goat looking for food.

deer.
my subway lunch.
taken while waiting for the rest. along wif the one below.
"stoned" me. see my pupils dilating. seriousli, ppl bought the pills to laugh, i bought the pills to make me sick. CB.
our room!!

dunno what. like snow flowers.
the door on the right leads to the toilet. cool roots huh?
christchurch to queenstown.

beeautiful views during the trip.
me. bored.
the long road ahead.

most of the pictures are views and scenery. so prettyyyyyyyyyyy!! (quote b.)

actualli have moe pics of lamas and donkeys and deers and other stuff but they r all in my laptop so... hee lazi to transfer...

hmm... realli wanna go back again...

and the guys there r so cute!!

look realli good in ski clothings and beanies and skis/ snowboard... hee

wenn lusting for new zealand

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i got a job offer yesterday.
advertising sales executive...
but i rejected it an hour after accepting it...
cos' i dun like the job and the pay's quite low...
mama felt that i should think clearly before making the decision to reject the job so she abit disappointed wif my harsh decision...
but we talked last nite so everything's fine now...
papa very cute; when i was hiding in my room last nite (lock myself up), he shouted through the door that he and mama will support me no matter what i do or choose.
veri touched.
but being in the grouchy mood i responded negatively.
(and becos' i thot papa wanna me to eat the dessert so tell me to open the door so i kept shouting out that i dun wanna eat)
ANYWAY, i got a call this morning for another interview!!
and its for a company that i want to work in!!
yeah!!!
quite happi!!!
still, hope that mediacorp will call me soonish cos' i realli wanna be a producer... *crossing fingers
anyway, tonite pp and b. staying over at my place...
cos' tmr PH.
nothing much happened these few days except for the job drama thingy...
anyway, i set up another blog to sell some of my stuff cos' my room realli too small...
go visit k?
and tell ur friends to go buy stuff from me ok?
its http://grannylovestoshop.blogspot.com/
my room's bursting.
(literally cos' the aircon pipe thingy kept on dripping!! my walls may burst soon... hahahaaa no lah drama)
heee and min suddenli reminds me something:
I LOVE MIN'S BUTT!!
her pi gu aka butt damm nice lah!!
realli high UP THERE and veri qiao (curvy)!!
i like!!
how come she is the onli one in the family to inherit the butt genre??
i wanna put the pic of her butt here but the mere suggestion earns me a stare from her...
aiyo!!
realli lor her butt veri nice!!
(for ppls who noe n**a, her butt like n**a's butt, maybe even curvier!! serious!!)
i love her butt lah!!
so i always call her pi gu, even in front of her tutor and friends...
hahahahahahahaaaa
i love min's pi gu!!!
will try to post her pic online wifout her noeing... hope can!! hahahahaaaa

wenn wants qiao pi gu.

wenn

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Wednesday, October 18, 2006

i had weird but funni dreams these past 2 nites...

dream 1:

humans and monsters/demons were living on earth in harmony and one dreadful day, ambitious humans wanna conquer the world and thus, decided to kill all the monsters and demons.
i was a student who became a soldier in this war between humans and monsters/demons.
i climbed steep hills, steep steps, wet and muddy grounds and wear army uniforms and my fellow army mates were laughing at my lousiness in doing these things.
the war ended and i was back to skool but all my monsters/demons friends were dead and i was realli sad and lonely becos' i missed them.
once again, cruel skoolmates laughed at me becos' all my monsters/demons friends were dead.
i was so sad.
then i found out that one of my demon friend, who was a rat demon, was still alive and hiding in the skool!!
i tried to save him from destruction and........
MY PHONE RANG!! I WOKE UP AND U NOE WHAT??!!! WRONG NUMBER!!!
CB!!!

told min abt the dream:
min: u must be watching too much doreamon movies...
me: ... (maybe)

dream 2:

i was harry potter and i was at my old house (hurong west).
my parents (ang mohs aka cauasians) and 3 siblings (brothers and sisters ang mohs too)were asleep in the master bedroom.
i was doing my work or something when my hairs stood and i knew that i was in danger.
i peered at my front door and discovered that it opened to a little crack and something black and shadowy was slipping through it.
i was freaked out as it kept happening so i ran to the door, slammed it closed and pulled the latch.
however, the door opened again, a little crack and i was so freaked out and scared that i ran to the master bedroom and hid under my covers.
(my bed's the upper bunk of a double decker bed)
someone/thing came in and tried to look for me but couldn't find me.
(my ang moh parents and siblings r still asleep despite of the search)
then the person/thing wrote a note on the blanket that was covering my legs which said that i was not there.
but as the person/thing pulled the blanket, he/she/it saw me and screamed for the monster/demon/scary people that i was there.
my ang moh parents and siblings woke up and my ang moh parents revealed that they knew abt my secret identity as a wizard/harry potter and helped me to escape through a little drawer that when u pulled open, will lead to another dimension.(my ang moh siblings escaped through another secret window thingy that leads to another dimension too but i couldn't get myself through the window so have to use the drawer dimension hole)
and somehow in the dream i knew that my ang moh parents would be fine (the monster/demon/people won't do harm to them).
then i came through the drawer to a book shop and hid behind a table, hugging the drawer to myself.
huang qiu shen, (anthony huang?) this hong kong actor was hagrid in my dream and he helped to divert attention away from me to save me from the monster/demon/people who came through the portal looking for me.
hagrid threw this red ball like thingy that gave out wizard sound/music/watever away from me to divert attention but the ball bounced back towards me and i was spotted by the monster/demon/people.
then, suddenli, i was at hogwarts/UQ/combination of both. and i was at a fair/market day. and i was in no danger. (apparently, though i din dream abt it, i knew (in the dream) that i was no longer in danger cos' i was at a safe place where people will protect me)
i was with ron and hermione and was carrying a thick folder of 500 pages of something important.
really heavy was the folder, i went to this vendor to ask for a magical object that would allow me to transfer the data of the folder into it and wore as a watch or something.
meanwhile, ron saw this cream that was in two shells; one side black and one side white.
supposingly, the white one can cure scars/something and the black one can cure blackheads/pimples/something immediately.
ron/me tried some on our hands and it worked but i could remember if we bought it or not.
the vendor had something for my folder data and he/she told me to hold the folder close to the object for 10 mins and the data would transfer into the object (which looked likea tacky cheap watch).
then hermione saw something (looked like a light blue, dark blue crystal in shell shape wif some cream) she liked and i nudged ron to buy for her. (hermione liked the light blue dark blue color shell thingy, though there were other colors as well)
ron asked abt the price and i couldn't remember if he bought it.
then suddenli, i was together wif 3/4/5 other guys in hogwarts/UQ again but ron and hermione were gone.
and i was still harry potter. (and was wearing wizard robes all the while except when i was at home and at the bookstop; think i wore a sweater or jumper there; ron and hermione were wearing robes as well)
apparently, the guys (wearing wizard robes too) i was with were the taiwanese pop band "energy" (seriousli weird) and either toro or niu nai (milk) was not there (cos' the other guys dun like him).
toro/milk (wearing robes too) came looking for them and they behaved in a cold manner towards and i tried to keep the conversation light but i was the onli one toking to toro/milk.
then, PHONE RANG AGAIN. SIOK CALLED ME.

yeah, my weird dreams.
hehe
quite funni though.
i told siok abt the harry potter dream and she said:
siok: did the broom break when u sit on it?? wahahahahahahahaaaa
me: CB!! go and die.

wenn

PS: i have an interview tomorrow!! heee hope everything's fine.
PPS: sian must look for formal outfit. BOOOOOOOO!!!

wenn
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Sunday, October 15, 2006

event 1:

xiao min: jie (elder sister), my tummy aches.

me: huh? why? what happened?

xiao min: juz now i washed my belly button then feng (wind) went in then tummy aches.

me: wahahahahahahaa

xiao min: then i put baby powder so that it won't hurt but still hurts.

me: wahahahahaaa why did u put baby powder? should put feng you (medicated oil)!! wahahahahahahahaaa

event 2:

my parents, min and me were waiting for ah Q after her tuition class. ah Q came down the stairs and i, determined to make her pai seh (embarassed), started shouting loudly -

me: er jie (second sister) ERRRRRR JIEEEEEEEEEEE (seconddddddd sisterrrrrrrrrrr)!!

and started waving like a mad woman.

and ah Q's with her friend from class and she was so pai seh that she refused to acknowledged me.

me: wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaa

my sisters very cute.

wenn

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4:35 PM

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i have a drama family. heee
can turn into a tv series. heee

wenn drama mama

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Friday, October 13, 2006

wow today is friday the 13th ah!!

wow.

din noe.

wow.

wenn

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do u feel old sometimes?

not old as in OLD old.

juz a feeling that time is passing too fast for u to grab and everything is changing before u.

thot u chang as well but somehow u crave for the YOU before all the changes?

the innocence and naivety (right spelling?) and stupidness that u so hate last time seems to be the things u wanted now?

no, not melancholy, juz a random thot.

sometimes i do wish that i am stupid.

not stupid like dumb stupid STUPID.

but stupid like naive.

it makes me feel happier.

when i was younger, i dun have to worry abt things that i dun understand.

u una?

since i dun una them, juz ignore them.

now, all grown up, i have to worry the things that i was too young to worry back then.

its already depressing enough to grow OLDER.

together wif age, brain seems to be becoming clearer somemore.

sucks.

i mean, yah lah its good to be smart and blar blar blar but sometimes knowing too much makes u more depressed.

mama told me before: old people r like children.

must protect them and treat them gently.

hmm...

ok quite random.

back to topic.

so u noe what, i always behave in a way that doesn't seems matured enough for my age.

like i will really party hard and have fun.

and act like a kid sometimes.

i am not childish lah.

but since having responsibilities and growing up's take up so much of me inside, i dun wanna behave in a way that actualli shows how i feel.

inside depressed already why make outside depressed as well right?

so when happy, must be happy like mad.

must show the happiness and feel it streaming through my body as i behave happily.

have fun must have fun without reservations.

(though abit hard sometimes hee)

aiya in short live life to the fullest.

clinche huh.

but who really live life to the fullest?

i dare not exclaim that.

who really have fun till they can drown in the fun-ness??

who, when cry really cry without reservations?

loud sobs, tears, the wa wa wa kinda cry?

so i think live life to the fullest = feel everything to the fullest.

aiya i dunno what i writing abt though i noe what i'm writing abt but anyway.

thots all jumbled up inside.

wenn

PS: yeah!! later go karaoke!! yeah!! yeah!!! call me when anyone wanna go ktv ok??

i love ktv-ing!! hahahahahahaha

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my mobile rang at 9ish this morning.

its an unfamiliar number.

could it be, maybe... reply from one of my job application?

i answered the phone wif a pretended-already-awake voice.

hi, i am desmond from ***-*****.

is this huanwen (aka me)?

OMG!! its a CALL!!

OMG!!

my first call!!

OMG!!!

me: yes i am.

so, i was informed to go for an interview this afternoon at 4pm.

i wrote down the address and guess what?

the office's at KALLANG!!

u noe how veri bloody far kallang is away from my house or not??

shit!!

should i go or not?

shit.

and i fell asleep thinking abt this.

woke up at 2pm.

begged ah Q to help me print out my resume and cover letter becos' i dunno how to use our printer.

dun give me the face.

dun like lexmark printer.

and i kept thinking whether i should go or not.

ask b..

she said if i dun even wanna the job dun bother going for the interview waste of time. but can go to practice my interview skills.

ask mama.

mama said juz go lor check out the environment nothing to lose.

BOOOOOO!!

find clothes to wear.

make up.

out.

took a cab there cos' i am a little late-ish.

hee sheepish.

and in my defence, i dunno where on earth the office is.

cab fare: 13.80

reached 20 mins earlier.

went to toilet.

checked outfit and hair.

went to the company.

filled in this form and was interviewed by desmond (the phone guy)

he asked me lotsa qns and i wasn't prepared at all cos' i'm not even sure if the job is realli what i want at first.

whats my strengths???

eh, meticulous, friendly + outgoing and willing to work hard.

desmond: onli 3? anymore?

me (thinking): huh? need more? thot 3 enough already? isn't 3 THE number?

think think think!

then,

desmond: what r ur weaknesses?

me (thinking): fuck, i dunno!! ahhh!!!

a bum? shit!!what should i say?

me (out loud): too much of a perfectionist.

blar blar blar.

him: onli this? anymore?

me (thinking): huh, how many u want me to say?

me (out loud): yah.

him: what do u do in ur free time?

me: go out, SHOPPING, reading, movie, chill...

more qns, more qns...

the interview took abt 45mins!!

after the interview, he explained to me abt what the company and the position i applied for is abt.

after listening to him, i realised that it is kinda of interesting and actualli, what i kinda of wanna to do.

hee glad i came. thanks mama and b..

desmond guy said if i pass this round of interview i have to go for 2nd round.

faint.

another round??

OMG!!

anymore things to ask??

maybe they will prompt me for my other other strengths or weaknesses.

hmm, strengths, my voice veri loud can hear across the room from office to production area.

weaknesses, eh always have to take cab to work cos' late.

right!! as if i can say all that!!

BOOOOOOOOO!!!

well wait for them to call next week lah.

if no call = no in.

well, at least i went for 1 interview already.

heheeeee

quite happi...

well, after interview went to meet b. at far east plaza.

i look like her mommy cos' i wore quite formal and she's wearing casual cos' she has this event thingy.

watever!!

we had BK then we went back to her place cos' i needa help her choose clothes for D&D.

help her mix and match few outfits.

and she told me to go be a stylist to help her fulfil her dream.

hahaa as if anyone wanna hire me.

though i must say the outfits i pick veri nice ok!!

heeeee full satisfaction from B..

she owe me big time!! hahaaaa

well, anyway, if anyone wanna hire me to help them dig their whole wardrobe and mix and match their clothes to get new outfits, i'll charge realli cheap.

here's the list:

stylist wenn's list of charges

go through entire wardrobe (plus shoes and accessories) and reinvent new looks for the clothes/person : $30 - $50 (max 5 hours)

go shopping wif them for new clothes/accessories/shoes to match their existing clothes: additional $20 - $60 (max 6 hours)

find clothes for an event (i.e. prom): $30

rental of my accesories: $3 per piece )excluding earrings)

hahaaa see all laid out.

anyone wanna hire me for services?

trust me, i have taste won't let u look like shit.

well, it will be good if i can realli work as a stylist (then i dun have to go for stressing interviews!!)

but my ultimate dream is to be a shoe designer.

lack of funds.

BOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

k stop day dreaming wenn.

aiya good to dream sometimes to feel happi...

suddenli feel like eating chocolate.

heee

yeah!! later going karaoke to celebrate fishy's birthday!!

heeee love singing though voice not veri good.

heeee

stylist wenn

PS: i want to go shopping.

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3:21 AM

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i fell down from my roller chair when i tried to reached for my body moisturiser.

i fell on the floor HARD and now, my butt HURTS BIG TIME!!

think will have an orh chiz (aka bruise) tmr.

fuck.

wenn

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Tuesday, October 03, 2006

ok...

i've been realli lazi to post pics. here for a while...

i have a reason...

if i have to plug my harddisk (where all my pics r in) into my PC, i will have to put the cpu out as it is facing the wall.

and i have to distangle tons of wires to do so...

while holding on to the cpu.

and my cpu is HEAVY!!

yes, i'm lazi.

BOOO......

well, will post pics on soonish...

once i got my internet cable from the back of the cpu onto my laptop i will post some pics...

especially the pics of my new stuff...

hee

and my new wardrobe...

and my nz trip, sydney trip whatever that i am supposed to post like zillion years ago...

i will do that...

instead of watching doremon vcds everyday...

k resolution of the month...

*determined

wenn

PS: hee its juz the starting of the month... heeeeee

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Saturday, September 30, 2006

today's daffy's birthday...

she is officially 23!!

hahaaa u r old b.!!

went to party world ktv at oriental plaza for her celebration!!

von, fish, daf, me, bear and bear's bf ZY and friends (they have another room though)...

it was fun!!

juz sang and sang and sang!!

i was the third one to reach and pp got off the wrong stop and had to walk a mrt station to reach me!!

hahaaaa she lost her way...

quite funni...

poor pp...

daf and fish were the earliest.

bear's the latest but she bought me make-up remover so its ok!!

hahaaa

sing, sing, sing...

at the stroke of 12, pp and me bought the cake in.

its coco exotica from four leaves!!

veri veri veri super yummy!!

i think i can eat one all by myself!!

hahaaa

ZY helped us to take pics. and cut the cake, proclaiming that he is the birthday cake guy.

ok...

well, b. and i finished the last of the cake and we continued singing till 1am...

then we went for dinner!!

note: dinner at 1am

but yu and i not hungry cos' we ate the cake before so daf had abit of pig's liver porridge and we went back home after that...

a fun nite...

sigh... we r 23...

sigh...

then 24, 25, 26...

ahhhhhhhhh!! freaky!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY B.!!

its my turn soon..

sucks...

wenn

PS: will post the pics soonish...

PPS: mundane life currently. job hunting sucks. call me out.

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

today, i welcomed the latest member of my family.

a tiny, tiny ball of fur.

or rather, "strand" of fur.

yes, i got a new hamster!!

heee

its a him.

his name is yi tiao aka one strand.

why this funni name?

chua siok hui and ng ailing.

during the naming ceremony of yi tiao, trying to think of a suitable name for him, my these two veri dearest friends decided that he is too skinny and thus, looks like a strand of fur.

and they called him yi tiao.

the name stuck.

so here comes yi tiao, the latest member of my family.

min's friend gave him to us.

he is soooooooooo adorable.

a little ball (strand?) of patchy brown and black fur.

soooooooooo cuteeeeeeeee!!!

i wanna get another female hamster to keep yi tiao company.

and i can name her er tiao aka two strands.

hahaaa

sooooooo cuteeeeeee!!

hamster talk; bian bian, shui shui...

so happi wif furry joy that i am shuddering in my seat!!

heeee

wenn

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

i'm glad to find love beneath the waves.

i'm glad that despite of appearances, love is still here.

though hard to notice at first, love is still here.

and everything else can be withstand.

despite of harsh conditions, we r still bound by love and love will take us through every wave, every storm, every quake, every disaster, every rotten egg.

happy happy.

wenn

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1:37 AM

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i am pissedddddddddd!!

wif stupid uncles/ah peks/ppl who stared!!

CB!!

today. i met ah do, pp and daffy at PS for dinner.

in an attempt to save money, we went to the food court for dinner.

i decided to have korean food and went to the stall.

there is this stupid looking CB face uncle in floral print brownish shirt that looked like shit waiting for food at the stall.

we were the onli two people there lah.

when i was checking out the food, this CB face ah pek turned and looked at me from head to toe.

SEVERAL TIMES!!

looked, then turned away, looked again head to toe and turned away then looked again!!

what the fuck??!!!
NEBER see char bo before ah??

feeling awkward and pissed, i went over to daffy and pp who were buying food from the next stall and complained to them.

daffy looked back and saw the ah pek still looking at me and she stared back at him.

determined not to be intimidated by this uncle, i went back to the stall and ordered food.

then i purposely waited for him to look again AND i turned to him and looked at him in the face and asked, "YES?" in a irritated-and-fierce-u-can't-intimidated-me-u-CB-face voice and glared at him.

the CB face uncle pretended not to hear me and looked up, looked down, looked here, looked there.

HAHAA pai seh ah, u freakshow!

yes, i am wearing a v-necked tank top and demin skirt.

cannot ah?

neber see before ah?

grggggggggggg!!

make me pissed juz thinking abt it!!

well, at least i stood up for myself if not i will be realli irritated wif myself right now.

seriousli, this is the second time i got stared at since i came back.

the first time was at the bus interchange near my house the week before.

i was wearing this low cut spag empire line printed top and denim skirt and ppl kept staring when i went to take the cab.

yah i do admit that my top was pretty low cut BUT come on, ppl dun have to STARE right?

can look discreetly right?

why must look at me till as if i have 3 heads?

neber see a big girl wif big boobs wear spag low cut top before ah? (and i noe that i looked good in that top)

its not as if my boobs r popping out lor!!

i wondered, if another girl was wearing the same top and she has small boobs or she is skinny, will ppl actualli look at her like that?

will they stare?

grgggggggggg... i am so not used to that.

i miss aus.

at least over there noone stared STARED at me as if i have 3 heads and 8 tummies if i wear revealing clothes!!

CB!!

i am confident in my own skin or at least confident enough to not let other ppl put me down this way but this is getting irritating.

those ppl give me the feeling that i should be ashamed of my body and hide behind fugly, hideous clothes.

those ppl can go screw themselves and their stupid narrow-minded attitudes (if they have any)!!

i love my body, all the wrobbly bits and cellulite and stretch marks!

though i want a slimmer one and have complaints abt it, this is MY body!!

one and only!

even if i can't lose weight and my body looks the way it is now, i will still love my body because it is mine and hating the way it look and hiding it is an insult to life, good life.

and my parents and myself and everything that i have came to believe and have faith in!!

so suckers and losers get lost!

queen wenn (and her clothes)(and her boobs) are here to stay!!

hahahahahahahaaa

k get abit carried away.

hee

anyway, i've gotten my point across.

it felt good.

wenn

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Friday, September 15, 2006

this entry is abt some of the parties, dinners i've been to in my last sem in brisbane...
and of cos' they brought back memories for me; fond, sweet, funny, tiring, crazi memories...
sigh...

vani and priya's house party

it was one of the fun-nest party i've been to; becos' of the ppl. i think its also becos' we r all kinda of drunk... hahaaa it was realli fun and i remembered stumbling my way back at 2ish in the morning... then dropping dead on my bed without bothering to shower... (all huishi's fault!! BOO!!)

bara khana (may 2006)

well, actualli it wasn't that big a thing, juz a normal ih formal dinner...
i think its the onli one that i've been to the last sem...
onli took a few pics...
after the dinner, i chilled in g lawn wif zo, yas, tama they all... drink and talk till 2ish...
funnish...
miss g lawn times...
sigh again...

boat cruise

boat cruise was awesome!! the theme is heroes and villains!!

i went as the devil, with my devilish horns and tail!! fuppi went as a devil too in black horns and a black fork thingy. tabe, nozomi, miki and sayaka went as witches, wif brooms and everything.. kexin as minnie mouse, ninle went as oren-ishii from kill bill, jacob as one of the crazi 88, zo as cat woman, yas as storm, sam as wolverine, michael as superman and mani mani more!! policewoman, the incredibles!! hahaaaa and cute cute sang went as DOREMON!! so cute!! *evil laughter
the after party was at union jack and the place sucks lah...
not a clubbing place juz a pubbish drinking place... but all in all, it was a fun nite!! :)
missing...

farewell party

well, my farewell party... it was ok but got alot of leftover food and alcohol cos' everyone's burnt out from o week...
and everyone's mesmerized by the idiot box!! cable... sigh...
so my farewell party ended up more like a catching up and watching cable party rather than a party PARTY but its was good in a way as i get to catch up wif friends and becos' of this farewell party, i found out from roland that i can stay for another month wifout paying the 400 bucks medical fees!! i mean, its kinda of dumb to do a medical checkup if i onli wanna stay for a month right?
took lotsa pics that nite BUT not flattering pics... sucks...
big tummy wenn...
boo...

IDD

went to this dinner thingy. thanks david!! :D

was pretty fun and nisa, puss and me danced like mad women!! while glads looked at us and shaked her head! hahaa

well, another fun nite before i left...

seeing all these pics made me wish that i am back in brissy, still studying instead of looking for a job now...
sigh... and suddenli, i desperately crave for a puff...
haiii...

wenn

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

haven't been blogging for a while.
busi packing my room, my new wardrobe, going out, ktving and stuff...
too lazi to blog.
anyway, last friday was ah do's birthday and we went to this indoneasian place for dinner.
the place is at suntec.
and while i was having dinner, my monthly affair decided to make its appearance and wearing a pale blue skirt, u can guess the result.
a BIG, BIG, super obvious stain on my skirt!!
and noone told me anything till my friends saw it!
i mean, seriousli, i stood up, went to guardian for a bit, walked for a bit, and u r telling me that noone sees anything or din tell me anything??!!!
whats up wif all those people?
can't they juz tell me so that i can rush to the toilet and try to get rid of the stain?!!
instead, noone says anything and i am pretty sure there r people who saw it!!
wau lau!! what happened to common courtesy?
see my face?
anyway, after daf they all saw it, we rushed to the toilet and kimimi tried to wash it off for me but in vain.
SO, i have to rush back home, taking a cab, to change so that i can go phuture after that!!
see my face again??!!!
so irritating!!
seriousli, if next time anyone sees this kinda thing happened before their eyes, pls inform that person cos' it can be rather humiliating not knowing and walking around in that state!

wenn

PS: yeah!! meeting mimi later to go ikea!! haven't seen him for like years, literally!!

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

i feel so guility for jumping to conclusion abt what happened today.
i shouldn't have jump to the conclusion like that wifout clarification.
do i judge immediately juz becos' it is him?
yes, i think i do.
guilt.
and it suddenli hits me that why am i treating him like that?
what the fuck am i doing?
i am a bad person.

wenn

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Tuesday, September 05, 2006

is it better to endure an increasingly suffering relationship, knowing that things will not get better, instead of risking everything u shared?
or is it better to end the relationship, but causing pain and hurt to everyone else on the way?
knowing that things will always be the same, bad same, but nevertheless same; is it always a safer bet?
or should we juz be a risk taker and end it, hoping for the best, or at least something better than what we have now?
is it for a better good if a couple juz stayed together and ignore their complaints and troubles and differences in hope to keep this charade within themselves, pretending that everything is good, intead of causing other loved ones pain?
what if ending a relationship means giving up something tp the other, something that both loved but can defintely not be shared?
say for example: what if a couple get a divorce after 15 years of marriage and they have kids?
or worse, juz a kid whom they have to "split" between the both of them?
what will it do to the kid?
but is it any better to remain in this marriage if the marriage is crumbling and the couple no longer have the same thinking or sing to the same tune?
which is better?
and what if they both still love each other, maybe one more than the other, but have totalli different thinkings and this difference kept them apart emotionally and mentally?
what if counselling dun work and u noe nothing will change despite of all the efforts?
is it better to split?
what is right and what is wrong in a relationship?
how do u noe when to "throw the towel" or when to continue the fight?
how do u noe if what u feel to ur partner is an imitation of love, instead of love itself?
or does the illusion of "happily ever after" chained all of us into this beautiful myth and make us believe in it and act on it despite the fact that the truth is anything but?
should, or rather, do we keep to our vows?
"i will contiue to love u more and more for each passing day". does it really apply when two different people wif two different sets of thinkings get together?
after the initial happy woziness, will a couple get used each other's differences and compromise?
what if compromising dun work?
what if one wanna things to go his or her? is it selfishness or simply wanting the best for oneself?
what is a relationship and what is love?
what is "i will love u till the end"? what is the end? the end of the love or the end of the couple or the end of the world? or the end of compromissing?
i dun noe.

wenn

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Friday, September 01, 2006

i'm back...
forever!!
sigh...
i mean, i miss singapore, my family and friends here so much but i can't imagine not going back to brissy again for like years!!
and leaving all my friends there sucks...
BIG TIME!!
when i was saying bye yesterday it felt as if i am still gonna see them today or something...
well, won't be seeing them for a veri long time!!
i din realli cried when saying bye but when i got onto the plane, i juz started crying...
miss glads and nisa particularly...
and ninle called me minutes before my plane took off...
so sad to be saying goodbyes, noeing that u may not see ur friends for years to come... (well, at least some of them)
back to the reality. needa find job and pack my room...
sigh...
struck me hard; i am an adult now.
end of an era...

wenn

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

i miss nozomi and tabe... :(

wenn.

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Friday, August 25, 2006

there's a new entry below the have sex, make love entry!!
its abt my graduation ceremony!!!
wif pictures!! heeeeeeee
but i dunno have to make it to become the first entry... cos' i did the entry a few days before and were too lazi to add the pics so juz put them up today...
anyone tell me how?

wenn

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

went to city yesterday wif bitch.
went to dome for lunch and sort of regreted it after that.
the food is pretty good and the honeycomb chocolate something drink is heaven but... the meal set me back about 13 bucks. (bitch paid for my drink so not too bad)
13 bucks... cost for 2 meals...
reasonable price but given my financial difficulty now, quite a sum of money.
why? tell everyone wenn.
cos' i onli left about 150 bucks till next thursday when i go back and this 150 bucks include the lipstick that i NEED from lancome.
so... u see my problem?
haiii shouldn't have impulse buy so many things...
but well... too late...
anyway, bitch went round city looking for her siblings' stuff and while she went to industrie, i went to valleygirl factory outlet.
i noe i shouldn't, especially when i am tat broke now but i juz couldn't help it.
juz a look wenn, juz a look.
end up buying 4 items: a stripy cardi that so matches the skirt that i am wearing and i love it so much that i end up wearing it on the spot; a stripy paddlepop green and white shirt that looks comfy and pjs-like (for work, u need shirts for formal work wear wenn); this sort of zebra-like printed dress that i noe will look realli nice wif a nice leather belt; and a knitted dress which bitch said show all my bulges but i noe i can work it out wif a nice belt and accesories to match.
total money spent: AUS$44 .cents.
cheap right? 44 bucks for 4 items!!
and they r so nice!!
hahaa good conquests...
when bitch saw the stuff i am carrying on my hands to try, she scolded me for my lack of preservance in saving my money for better purposes and started going through them and telling me to put them back.
i refuse to listen to her and she called glads to ask her to reason wif/scold me.
but too bad i developed sudden deafness that onli occur in situations like these so in the end, bitch cannot do anything she juz pushed me towards the fitting room so that i cannot add more stuff to the large pile on my hands.
so fierce.
i was smacked and pushed and scolded.
well, i noe its for the good of me but...
i love u bitch and glads!! :D
anyway, i got the 4 items i've mentioned and bitch got 2 cardis which is realli cute.
we then went back home.
bitch wanna take a cab home but i told her i'm broke.
she said she can pay for the fare but not wanting her to pay for the cab fare alone, i told her lets juz take the public transport back.
in the past, before my financial dires, i would have say yes.
cos' we r both tired.
but now, have to save on necessary stuff right?
when we reached home, while watching tv, b. msged me and said she got one of the lipstick i wanted from estee lauder already but the one from lancome is not available in singapore yet so i have to buy it here...
well, have to set back abt 50 bucks to get it here... sucks...
so now, i am realli broke.
have to watch my money.
eat at home as often as possible.
wenn u r incorrigible!!
shopping freak!!
i think i suffer from obsessive compulsive disorder!!
maybe... can't resist shopping!!
omg!!
this is bad.
k forgetting abt it i have my money problem to worry for now...
after watching telly for abit, i went to ih to visit zo they all.
chilled wif zo, roxane, rita and sam for abit, helped zo wif her assignment and came home.
and ate a huge slice of cheesecake (david bought the cheesecake for us from the cheesecake shop)!!
yummy!!
so fattening but dun care fatty conscience on holiday!!
hahaaa
watched tv, shower, use com then go to bed at around 4ish 5.
due to sleeping so late last nite, i woke up at 3pm today and inbetween my sleep, glads and bitch kept waking me up by sitting on my legs, shaking me and shouting at me to get up!!
so bad!! then i juz turned my ears off and sleep on.
evil women those two!!
woke up, asked bitch abt her interview, watched telly, have lunch and soon dinner time.
(i have baked beans wif pepper for lunch and macaroni dessert for snack; mental note, have to get some real food!)
we went out to hawken for dinner, met lisha there, and after dinner, went to coles to buy REAL food.
hahaa tmr and the day after will be having home cooked food so dun have to spend money anymore.
RIGHT. kenny juz msged me on msn to meet up for dinner on friday night in the city and thus, goes my plan for staying in on friday.
but i realli wanna chill wif kenny they all cos' i am leaving...
must meet up wif them more often...
yeah... ANYWAY, read magazines, watch telly, shower and used my com till now.
hah, exciting life u have wenn...
going to bed soonish...
and tmr must meet glads in uni for the international career fair.
hmm... not veri optimisstic abt it.
reason:

a few months back during the lunch conversation -

boobs: i went to the career fair
foo: o realli? i wanna go too.
boobs: alot of engineering companies there. many job offers for engineering students. science students too...
me: are there any jobs for art students?
at this point, boobs and foo turned and looked at each other for a second then burst out laughing!!
yeah, get my drift?

sigh... but juz go tmr... juz in case...
wish me luck!!
k stopping here.

wenn

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

wenn's lists of fame:

wenn's list of alone times:

1. take plane alone - heaps

2. watch movie alone - uncountable

3. went for concert alone - one (jay chou)

4. eat in a resturant/food court/fast food centre - heaps

5. watch horror alone in the middle of the nite - heaps

6. walk through acacia park to get home in the middle of the nite alone - heaps

7. travel alone - one (sydney and melbourne)

8. go shopping alone - uncountable

afternote: hmm i did so many stuff alone. positive side, independent. negative side, sad.
blar.

wenn's list of pick-up/learn how in brissy:

1. make up

2. cheap clothes

3. smoking (N/A)

4. learn and think academically

5. jam donuts and cowboys shots

6. be more independent

7. boys will be boys

8. in a bit

9. cooking

10. mopping the floor

11. CB

wenn's list of favourite movies:
(no special preference to any unless stated)

1. brokeback mountain

2. the pillow book

3. eurotrip

4. american pie: band camp

5. gattaca

6. trainspotting

7. lord of the rings 1,2,3

8. harry potter 1 and 2 only

9. shrek 2

10. toy story 1 and 2

11. sex, lies and videotape

12. finding nemo

13. i, robot

14. while you were sleeping

15. chunking express

16. bridget jones' diary 1 and 2

17. monster

18. moulin rouge

19. fatal instinct

wenn

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

have sex or make love?

me: (watching a soon to be sex scene in a movie) they r gonna have sex soon.

bitch: why must u always say that? they r going to make love!!

me: have sex.

bitch: they r in love!! its make love!

me: have sex. make love is cheesy.

bitch: grgggggggg!! so cynical!!

seriousli, i nv realli believe in the concept of making love.

make love?

make a baby maybe more rational of a word.

its more like having sex. and having sex is not as vulgar as fucking.

fucking, i do agree, is too technical a term in a way.

having sex is perfectly fine.

make love is so, so, cheesy and corny!!

do u go up to ur bf/gf and say:

u: do u want to make love tonite?

yucks juz giving me goosebumps toking abt the term make love.

i mean, yah, nisa has a point abt 2 person in love and so the act of consensal sexual activity is making love.

yah yah but still, isn't it too cheesy for now?

well, maybe juz me.

my cynical bitch toking.

i remembered toking to my cousin before and she used the term make love.

and i remembered, i distinctly remembered cringing to that term.

and that was ages ago, before i could drink and smoke legally.

is the romantic genre in me dead?

am i romance intolerable?

maybe.

one good example:

me: (yes, watching tv again - male lead sings under the window of female lead) OMG that is soooooooo grggggggggggg........ mushy!!

lim: haha wait till a guy sings under ur window.

bitch: (LOL) i think wenn will kill him.

me: i will ignore him/call the police.

yeah, see. my cynical, unromantic self.

still, i love movies like while u were sleeping, brokeback mountain, the notebook...

romantic shows.

not exactly what a cynical bitch's favourite right?

i love the whole corny yet heartwarming plot of while u were sleeping where sandra bullocks fell in love wif, and vice versa, the brother of the man whom she likes but is in a coma (and bullocks saves his life) and the whole family mistaken bullocks as the coma man's fiance.

typically romantic comedy sprinkled wif typical cheesy romantic narratives.

and god noes how mani times i've cried watching and rewatching brokeback mountain...

the notebook?

na found me crying my heart out at the old noah and NAME when she decided to pay me a visit.

so, these should qualify me as a romantic right?

but what abt the gagging of under window singing or the whole make love have sex thing?

in this way, am i an unromantic romantic?

or a cynical romantic?

reaching deep down, i noe that i am not as cynical as i portrayed.

i am romantic as well.

juz that i dun do cheesy romantic.

i like my romantic-ness to be something real, something realistic and sweet, not pretentious sweet.

u una?

well, maybe if i did find someone i truely love, i may become a romantic romantic.

yucks i am so cringing on my previous sentence.

truely love and romantic romantic in one sentence; YUCKS!!

STILL, anything can happen.

maybe one day i will be able to say make love wifout cringing.

who knows?

meanwhile, i juz gonna stick to my non-cringes term:

HAVE SEX!

cynical wenn

PS: r u wif me? do u say have sex or make love?

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Monday, August 21, 2006

the big day of my life...

the day that i have been waiting for for so many years...

the day where i have always dream of...

my graduation.

the past two years have been awesome!

i've made so many friends, do so mani stuff that i would nv do back home...

and most importantly, i've learnt so much...

other than what i've learnt in classes, i've learnt to be more independent, more sociable and more adaptable.

it is realli within these 2 years that i've actualli learn how to learn something...

like in the past, i have nv actualli learn something in skool...

i've memorised, studied and read but i have nv learn or use my brains the way i use them here...

hahaaa, i mean for education.

in uni, i think and learn.

i dun memorise and cramp.

i love uni.

love love love uni.

i love my classes; they r so fun!!

tok abt films and tv shows and pop culture and everything that is not shown on the exteriors.

i love it.

so gonna miss uni life.

anyway, back to my graduation...

well, everything was great.

but stressful.

have to make sure my friends have the tickets, parents and grandpa taken care of, have camera, right time to report for the ceremony, what to bring, and on top of all these, have to make sure i look good!!

seriously, it feels like wedding preparation man!!

except there is no groom.

wedding of me and me. ahhaaa

anyway, as usual, something malu happen to me during my ceremony.

no i din fall off the stage.

hee

well, graduates walked into the ceremony hall in a line and when the line stopped, i turned and waved to my family and friends.

when i turned over, the guy in front of me is like a few metres away and u noe what, i did this typical wenn thing.

i wave my hands in a typical bimbotic OH MY GOD moment and ran like a freaking bimbo while shaking my hands from left to right towards the person in front of me!

and the worst thing is, all these are caught on TAPE!!

and everyone in the hall can see me doing my bimbotic run through 2 HUGE screens at the side of the stage!!

and yes, everyone laughed.

at least i noe my friends did.

and i nv leave it down.

(got teased for it ages after)

so typical wenn-moment.

sucks.

here r the pics from my graduation ceremony:

group photo after the ceremony but too dark to be seen. :(
rita and me
ninle, me and cob

supposed to be candid but apparently i am the onli one who's doing the candid thing.

ulric (bitchy), me and shirley
june, wendy and me
mommy and me at ih
me and molly
the clearer side taken pic.
molly, me and na
me and na
my trencher. mommy bought 4d but din win. well...
ann and me and "that brotherhood may prevail" sign
me and the ih sign (wif lizards families living on it)
the nicer pic.
me and the ih sign
unprepared family photo
prepared family photo of papa, me, ah gong and mommy.
me and the great court
the nice family photo
me on the stage!! (i was so scared that i may fall off the stage!!)
me (cannot remember what)
after receiving the certificate.
walking back to seat.
rita and me again.
ninle, me and cob again again.
fuppi, me and mako.

the cute japanese hand signs. haha i am a poser!
me and molly. (molly helped me so much for the graduation man. big kiss!!)
me and glads. (she wore a dress specially for my graduation ceremony!! so touched!!)
na, me and foo. (foo is in her famous blue pullover!)

me and lisa (my tutor) i love her she is such a good tutor!! hmm, have another pic wif another tutor frances but the pic disappeared... hmm...

yeah graduation.

not so big a deal after all the whoooohaaass...

juz another day in weird looking harry potter-ify robes and weird headwear.

conclusion to a major part of my life.

wenn

PS: FINALLI, nadine is back!! finalli see her after a year!! that bitch!! kept us waiting for so long!! miss her so much!! :D

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a certain topic today makes me realise something...

i have 2 consciences...

one's a normal conscience; juz like everyone else...

the other's a fatty conscience...

yes, a fatty conscience.

a conscience that nags at me whenever i ate fatty food. a conscience that makes me feel guilty everything i eat something fatty.

this realisation of fatty conscience takes place like this:

me: i always wanna drink melted chocolate in a cup.

bitch: lets do it!

me: no i can't, my fatty conscience haven't extend that far yet. it doesn't allow me to do that.

tata, the realisation of fatty conscience...

i think nearli everyone, or should i say females have a fatty conscience.

a nagging, irritating voice before every bite of cream cakes, choclates and fried potatoes which tells u abt the harm the food will do to ur waistline, ur thighs and ur bums...

and on a less frequent basis, ur health.

when does fatty conscience starts to appear?

defintely not when i was a kid...

(parents dun count)

when i was young, junk food's my favourite food man...

maybe becos' they r so bad but taste so much better than the veggies that my parents made me eat...

boiled lady fingers wif soya sauce... (freaking)

someway along the whole battle wif puberty, fatty conscience appears.

it appears suddenly and slowly, takes over my child's heckcareless instinct...

the next thing i noe, i am worried abt every bite, every morsel, even if they r healthy stuff...

me: shit, i realli wanna eat this chocolate/chip/NAME.

fatty conscience: no, wenn u can't. imagine what it will do to ur waistline. imagine how long u gonna exercise to banish it.

me: but, but...

fatty conscience: NO!

me: ... (put back the food/banish the thot of eating)

this is a struggle that happens on a daily basis...

at least when i was in my teens... (OMG when i WAS in my teens? i am NO longer in my teens?!! OMGGGGGGGG)

seriously, thinking abt it, how does fatty conscience come along?

how does something so pleasurable (eating good food) always followed by guilt and disgust?

its fatty conscience to blame!

why does eating fatty food feel so good but yet make us feel like crap afterwards?

for some serious case, even a boiled lady finger can make fatty conscience pissed off and create havoc inside the minds of some..

and the most infuriating thing is that fatty conscience is not related to health most of the time!!

apparently, fatty conscience tells us to stop eating fatty food becos' we will look fatty.

not becos' its bad for our health.

fatty conscience makes us superficial.

it tells us: look on the outside, look on the outside. noone can see the inside so juz let it go to dump.

mean fatty conscience.

but lousy me, i can't get rid of fatty conscience...

it went away for a bit nowadays...

but i noe it will come back soon.

becos' i am going back to singapore where i think has one of the strictest fatty consciences..

and my fatty conscience will start its work again...

sigh... fatty conscience is juz like pop up ads on the internet...

keep popping up although they r not wanted.

and the worst thing is, u can't close it unlike the pop ups.

big sigh...

hmm, is ur fatty conscience strict?

should we have an anti-fatty conscience campaign?

fatty-conscience-on-holiday-wenn

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Tuesday, August 08, 2006

i am staying!! well for another few weeks or so...

heheee

currently leading the life of a housewife...

wake up, eat, watch cable, do housework abit, cable, eat, cook dinner, cable, shower, sleep...

repeat cycle...

hahaa oh, and the random visits to ih...

hee

well basically i've been chilling here wif my friends...

bumming rocks... :D

anyway, i haven't been posting any "real" posts for like nearli 2 months...

today, the writing bug strikes me and i've decided to unleash my innr soul of the writing spirit and actually post a real post...

(actually i'm juz being not SO lazi today)

this blog is abt my melbourne and sydney trip...

Melbourne

i departed for melbourne on the 6th of july...

my flight is early in the morning at 7am!!

fainting!!

well, i din sleep the whole nite cos' i was busi packing everything in my room...

before that i was chilling with ninle in tabe-ko's room cos' she was leaving the same day...

my cab came at around 5.45am and tabe-ko sent me off...

it was really saddening to say goodbye, knowing we may not see each other again for years...

and i have gotten so much closer to tabe-ko last semester...:*(

we promised not to cry but when we were having our final hug, i juz started crying...

then i left on the cab and cried on the cab...

(AFTERNOTE: apparently, sang came to send me off but came a few seconds too late i was already in the cab... he told me tabe-ko cried...)

what a start to holiday...

crying...

sucks...

why do i have to start my holidays crying?

well, reached the airport, took the plane and reached melbourne...

took the bus to my backpacker, Greenhouse backpackers...

wif my black trenchcoat and pinkie, i dun realli fit in the whole backpacker culture thingy...

looks so corporate but well, in melbourne, a girl has to dress up right?

hahaa juz my logic...

anyway, i was put in a 6 peeps dorm...

all females...

thats the view outside the staircase. cool sia!! haha i'm in paris!! RIGHT!!

after settling in, i left to do some shopping damage...

walk in the city and kept on stopping at nearli every shop, emerging wif an additional shopping bag nearli everytime...

still, despite of the shopping, i felt so lonely.

and i kept on calling foo complaining that i am bored and lonely so sad...

i think he laughed at me... :(

but he's so nice!! helped me return my keys and checked my room to make sure everything was taken...

thank u foo!! :D

btw, did i mention that i travel to melbourne and sydney ALONE?

yeah... alone...

cos' everybody either not free or dun wanna go juz on a shopping trip...

and yes, i've forgotten to mention that this is a pure shopping trip...

i've been to mel and syd before and did all the tourist-y stuff so yeah, been there done that, shopping rules!

anyway, continuing, my shopping bags are so heavy that i have to go back and put them down in my backpackers and continue shopping after that...

then, i went to chinatown for dinner...

chiffon rice with bbq pork and chai sai!!

heee yummy...

i wanna take a nice picture of myself salivating over the rice but being alone, i can't... have to satisfy with pictures of the rice instead..

(actualli i took a few pictures but deleted majority of them cos' need space for other pics... hee)

the rice, as usual, was realli yummy... and i cannot finish which means that it is indeed a HUGE serving...

hahaa

like deja vu...

cos' daffy, yvonne and me ate there at the exact same time juz a year ago...

then, bought more stuff, then decided to conquer my loneliness and shopping burn by watching pirates of the carribean 2...

yeah they got student price!!

but still $12!!

the theatre was massive man!!

the screen's huge and i had a good experience...

but i dun realli like the movie...

too complicated...

but as usual, johnny depp is HOT!! so HOT!!

woshhhhhhhhhhhh!!! hee

after the movie, i went back to greenhouse and retired for the nite...

ok, the details of the next few days in melbourne are kinda of blurry cos' i cannot remember already as everyday was spent SHOPPING and SHOPPING and SHOPPING!!!

juz a few memorable events that happened...

on the next day, i went to Queen Victoria Market and have my breakfast there!! the food is awesome man!!

and when i sat by the road side, in the cool crisp air, eating a hot i-forget-the-name, i felt so good! felt so authentic-in-the-movie-being-indepedent kinda feeling!!

and i was toking to this old gentlemen sitting at my table...

he was waiting for his wife and she was late and he was debating whether to go to his car to take the hp he forgotten to bring wif him or not...

he travelled to melbourne first by either ship or plane and his wife came later on either ship or plane too...

cos' one wanna take ship and another wanna take plane... ahahaa

and they arranged to meet at QVM for breakfast...

so sweet!!!

we juz chatted and i left after finishing my food, wishing him good luck for his wife to be there soon...

i went to QVM, bought some stuff, chilled and left in the afternoon...

see the fresh fruits and the ducks!! reminds me of daffy!! hee

had lunch there (this yummlicious hot dog bun wif cheese and something)!! then while i was walking back, i came past this hair saloon that said, $15 for female haircuts!!

i wanna cut my bangs for a bit already so i went in and asked how much does it cost to juz cut my bangs...

the guy said $5 so i happily sat down and let a lady cut my bangs...

then she cut it horizontally and makes me look like a geek or wanna-be and i tried to tell her i wanna the long-short bangs...

when she finally understands and cut for me again, my bangs became too short and i realli do look like a geek/wanna-be-taiwanese-chick-who-wanna-be-japanses-chick!!! fainting!!

my cool corporate look is ruined!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

i ended up pinning my bangs back wif a clip the whole trip!!!

nv cut ur hair juz becos' it is cheap!!

then... i cannot remember what i did already...

think shop again but cannot remember where!! ahhaa

the next day, i went to bridge road to shop!!

the place is like, is like AWESOME for shopping lah!!

everywhere have sales!! warehouses' sales!!

and the street is soooooooooo damm long!!

i shopped from 12 till 5pm still cannot finish but no time to go back there again... sad...

there are accessorize warehouse, cotton on, country road, bardot and random shops that i cannot remember the names!!

anwyay all the shops are there lah!!

i nearli collapsed from carrying the shopping bags!!!

i blocked the tram entrance with my mountains of shopping bags!! ahhaaaa

at around 3.30pm, i was damm hungry cos' i din have any breakfast or lunch...

so i have to forced myself to stop and grab a subway so that i can continue my journey of indulgence!!

i went to subway, put my bags down, and ordered...

then these 2 girl;s came in and one stopped after she saw my shopping bags and motioned to the other to look.

girl 1: i've neber shopped so much in my life man... (pointing to my bags).

girl 2: giggles

watever!!

jealous huh?!! hahaaa

after subway, i continued shopping and went back when all the shops clsoed...

earli end to the exhausting but fulfilling day...

the next day, i've decided to go to DFO.

and i've made a new friend!! her name is hye kyeong!! a sweet and pretty girl from korea and she's also travelling alone in melbourne and will be going to sydney a day after me!! yeah!!

she's my roommate at greenhouse and as we both wanna go to the DFO, we decided to go together...

however, as we chose sunday to go there, there is no buses running so we have to change to the next day...

we went to smith street instead as it is also a factory outlets place...

but din buy much there cos' not alot of shops and not veri nice...

bought a huge nike luggage bag which is used to ship my shopping stuff from mel to brissy cos' luggage space not enough!! ahhaaa

after putting down the big bag, i went wif hye kyeong to meet kevin and his gf, lisha (right spelling?) for a bit...

then we went for dinner...

after dinner, hye kyeong and i went to crown casino to try the famous cheesecakes at this resturant name Geco Grill (i think)...

the cheesecakes are awesome!!

we split 1 baked cheesecake, a mars bar cheesecake and 1 tiramisu between us and i ordered an ice mocha and hye kyeong ordered a cuppacino!! heee

so shiok man!! have fireball "performances" too!!!

hahaaa

she told me that alot of females in korea are on diet and thus eat veri little but she's not...

and i told her that i am happy i meet her instead of the constantly-on-diet women from korea...

hahaa
we chatted and sat there for about 2 hours (?) then went back to greenhouse.

hye kyeong is realli nice!!

realli like her!!

so happy to meet her!!

if i haven't gone travelling by myself, i wouldn't have meet her and made a good friend!! :D

the next day, we finally went to dfo!!

but noe what, stupid me, after taking a train ride there, took the wrong bus at the right busstop and both of us ended up at some ulu place which i think is the next town!!

faint!! it took us like an additional hour to reach dfo man!! shit!!

and the bus driver was so nice...

he told me to wait in the bus as the bus will go back to the BUSSTOP where we boarded the wrong bus and take us to the DFO!!

see my face!! fainting!!

then kye hyeong and i juz spent our time taking pics of each other on the bus and toking to the bus driver...

well, at least unlike other tourists, we have a fairly good look at the neighbour!! not alot of ppl can achieve that ok?!!

finally reached the DFO and we separated to shop...

then abt an hour plus later, hye kyeong called me and told me that she's done...

not wanting her to wait, i asked her to go back first...

and i juz shopped till closing time!! hahaa

bought so much stuff at espirit and dunno what shops lah...

forget!!

hahaa and bought sex and the city dvds!! yeah!! on sale!!

hahaaaa

then went back and had dinner wif hye kyeong...

(actualli cannot remember clearly).

i remembered eating at this "japanses" resturant that serves normal rice for japanses crusine!!

so the food ended up tasting like chinese food and the both of us so have the craving for authentic japanses food sia!!

damm!!

(ehhh actualli i think this dinner is on the day of cheesecake itself, not this day)

OH i remmebered!!

i had dinner at this other japanese restuarant near greenhouse but again, it tastes like chinese food!!

i had teriyaki chicken which tasted like soya sauce chicken!! fainting!!

whats up wif all those supposed to be japanses resturant?!!

haiii...

the next day, i am supposed to fly to sydney so i had an earli nite and said goodbye to my roommates...

this german woman, yuka i think her name, this vietnamese woman, a new japanses woman whom i cannot remember her name, and this australian woman named michelle, i think. tok to them quite abit when i was in the room...

they are realli nice too...

and yuka said something realli funni...

she asked if we had seen a jim carrey movie whereby he wakes up everyday on the exact same day and do the same things...

she said watching me pack my shopping bags into the luggage EVERYDAY is juz like that movie...

hahaaa deja vu!! hahaa